this whole day, me, RQ n jeslin..all slacking at work.
so little customers and that supervisor sherry is nt around
that is da time that we are most shuang.
yays..but today whole day i was like stoning quite a no. of times. llolx.


he came my place today, to my surprise.
my sis was shocked.
he stood by da door so suddenly.
i was shocked too.
he held me, asked me questions.
"do i still feel for him?"
"will i nt be happy if things cont?"
"have i forgotten things we did together?"
etc.

all my answers were negative.
i almost answered a yes.
i wanted to.
but i told myself..NO..juz NO!
i dunnoe y.
but
juz feel that sth is missing.
ther's a gap.
i dunnoe wat is it.
the missing piece in my fairytale.
the feelin i hope to have in my fairytale is juz not right.
he hugged me.again, i almost gave up my no and simply answered a yes.
but all i did was to push him away.
i'm getting colder...colderrr...non-human?

finally he msged to say that he decided to give up.
the coldness in me broke.
tears almost flowed.
but i bottled them up.
i cant bear to hear that.
cant bear to..
cant bear to..
but i chose nt to reveal how much i cant bear too.
let time fade off everythin
it wld be better for him.
i juz want him to haTE me..but he doesnt..
pls hate me!!

^hate me^

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