Complexity in Simplicity

Thursday, October 02, 2008

.Wonderful Times Again

First desserts at ben & jerry since Cheeky's return!

27 Sep 08 -Ben & Jerry at Cathay

And the night's talk bout RESPONSIBLE men...

Shokudo - 30 Sep 08

It's always good to have something you used to have and love so much. The usual late nights out, one activity after another. To be able to do things together without too much of a hesitation, all in the name of enjoyment and fulfilment. Just hafa admit that recurring mental burden is bad. Too bad I was alil tired after movie and became less conversational..

Swenson's White Choc Blondie - 30 Sep 08

We talked bout how likely one in love can easily Cognitive Dissonance. Not that I agree with him that I'm committing such a dissonace too. Consiciously, I know i'm not.

In fact I think that Self-fulfilling Prophecies is more likely..If you look at the most basic way of how this mechanism works..it seems like everyone suffers from it.

Expectations towards somebody -> you therefore behave in a certain way somewhat congruent to your expectations -> person in a specific way coz of way of treatment -> Confirm your expectations.

Sometimes I wonder how detectable is this? OR can you actually detect it? It's so easy and normal that you treat ur loved ones better...and reciprocation, supposedly traits of a good character. Reciprocity in kindness at least. If it exists, in this case, I think self-fufilling prophecies are happening in a 2-way direction.

OH. and who's trying too hard? The fact that one probably need to sustain their self-esteem through a series of reminders and goals. And I believe self-esteem is etched into one in the most sub-consicious manner. It's only when u think that you are more superior than others out there then will you feel good about yourself. Frankly speaking, I feel that self-esteem should be a relative cognitive element than an absolute one. Or for the least, you have to nativfy it.

I dont wanna run away

but I cant take it anymore, I dont understand

3:19 AM

Labels: Dine, happy, happy food., my love :), Reflections

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Thursday, September 25, 2008

.Sudden Retracts

A short post before I start studying for the day.

A long but fufilling day. A short project meeting in school, followed by working in sch; photoshop and data entry for a Prof. It amazed me how she identified those badly damaged coins. Voices of 'rotate somemore, further..further' have been ringing in my head for the whole of the afternoon.

Before dance, I met up with Cheeky for a relatively short dinner. *soup, soup* Come to think bout it...seems to be some time ago that I actually meet him after his work for dinner. And a chubby machine has detected a fatigue gloom.

Headed for Dance practice at 8+...before L.A. Hip Hop begins at 9pm. The way Instructor Ash teaches the class is very much different from Xiao Ke and Lavigne. With a pump of youth, energy and humour into the class..it seems to have lifted the spirits of all. As for the dance style itself, I admit it's tough. It's certainly less tiring than Reggae, since it's more of flow.. but doesnt seem very easy to grasp the flow/waves, isolation and most importantly accent. He mentioned the beauty of L.A. is the sudden retracts and/or pops JUST towards the end of a beat. That's very different what I've done over the past year...an energised-orientated pops and sexy-pretty steps. In L.A., it's more of a cool. Perhaps what they say is right..must be right that you need some time to adapt to the different style of a teacher...all the more, more time required to get used to the style in a particular genre of dance.

And I wonder...are dances really gender oriented? As in, are some dances suitable for certain genders of us only? I'm not bringing in Stereotypical views of any but it does show that guys really seem to look better in hip hop like L.A or maybe even lyrical. Conversely, gals definitely look more apt in Girls Hip Hop and Reggae. Then again, that's how those names came bout isnt it?

New Choreography song: Invisible by Jackie Boys
Newly Addicted-to Songs: Hush Hush by Pussycat Dolls (such an emo song, but so apt to hurt and strong souls in love, though a lil escapist) and Zombie by The Cranberries..
*hahas, I dunnoe how many times I've played them in 2days..more than 10times i think..for the least. -

From Everything I Wanted When You Came Along
But I'm Never Beaten From Broken Up Defeated
I Know Next To You Is Not Where I Belong

1:34 AM

Labels: Dance, my love :), Uni-, Work

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Saturday, September 20, 2008

.Absolute Isolation: Meritus Mandarin

To sum it all before I start, they were surprising, indelible moments, soothing, sweet, cosy and luxurious.. :DD

Friday - 12 September

The grand plan goes this way.. On Friday night before I pack my stuff for ''weekend home'', I was told not to leave the house until he has told me what's that one thing to bring.. So i waited patiently for this busy man to tell me what's that one thing.. And it turns out to be.... my swimsuit.. !

When I saw Cheeky... I asked him " Uh...are we going swimming?" and I was told that we MAY be going for a swim before anniversary dinner..If not, we can go on Sunday too.

Later in the night, Shaun came asking if we wanna join him and his girlfriend for a swim at their dad's condo tomorrow afternoon. And it was dismissed with a 'see-how' response from Cheeky, when I thought they already planned it before-hand. It's just too coincident yea?

As promised, Cheeky gave me a hint, on where we're going the next day, before we turned in.

- "A place that doesnt close until past midnight" and he wanna cross midnight with me ;D

Obviously, this wasnt a very good hint, at least to me. Coz almost everywhere opens past midnight on a Saturday night...I stumbled on my guesses.

Saturday - 13 September

We diligently packed our swimsuits, grooming needs, the clothes for dinner to go over to his dad's abode for a swim. This man is smart; he came up with the excuse that we dont have time to return and change for dinner so we have to bring our stuff along. And I docilely followed the man, as much as I can according to his plans. While I had totally no idea of the grand plan in mind. All in my mind was how will Swimming be with all of them. On the other hand, Cheeky said he dont really feel anything for the swimming but rather how the plan would work out. The waiting time before the activities for anniversary rolled out was slow..

We tucked ourselves into the car, finding ourselves driving on busy roads in the day-time. It was kinda different. Rather than the usual soothing cruise we had, things felt abit more energised. We had Cheeky cursing and swearing at car-drivers who horned at him. With the guidance from Shaun and Lin to his Dad's place, we arrived at the first destination. Supposedly a destination or not.

"Hey where are you going darling?" Cheeky asked me when I opened the car door attempting to get down with Shaun and Lin. This made me pretty puzzled and I probably gave him a blur reply.. "I'm getting off with them?" But I was told to accompany him while he go park the car..outside.

Outside? This sounds pretty weird to me. And I was just thinking how weird this condo is, not allowing visitors to park their car inside. (I'm feeling kinda dumb whenever I think of this part). The journey to the car-park "outside" was beginning to feel alil long.. until he hit the expressway. I cant help but asked.. 'why is your carpark so far away?"

"We are not going to swim, darling. We're going somewhere else.." Cheeky smirked as he utters those words. It kinda stunned me that I only replied "oh! okae..."

As the car moved towards CTE (probably the only expressway that I can really recognise), I asked if we're going to town and was told that "nope, we are just passing by town''

Soon, we reached the REAL destination and looking at where Cheeky was going, I finally got my guess. Meritus Mandarin.

Upon the arrival at the always-familiar Meritus Mandarin's lobby.. I was again urged to wait at one side. It was really sweet looking at his back-view, checking in...Doing everything by himself. And one thing that I havent mention is the kind of contentment, warmth and love felt when I saw him carry the bag of heavy belongings.- It's not about what he always do but what he usually don't do, despite it being a small favour.

Room 2042

The lovely room that we were allocated for the night was 2042, at the South Tower.

With a skillful swipe, Cheeky slotted his key-card above the 'key-hole' above the door-knob. And what stands before the opening of the door was a room which was spacious, luxurious and really soothing.. It must be the kind of holiday-mood one has when checked into a place of absolute nothingness in ur reality. Sadly, the view of the room wasnt facing the Wisma Atria Side.. Nevertheless, like I told Cheeky, this place is really a great place for a contemplative mind to think and feel.

On the right side when you enter this cosy room, it's a full-walled mirror facing the toilet with the sliding door..On the left side when you enter, it's a simple yet classy and sparkling clean toilet with a bath-tub!

In the room, neatly plain yet luxurious-oriented white coupled with orangey-red furniture really made the furnishing look really compatible. The bedsheets were of no crease and had four big comfty pillows laying on each other. Most importantly, it, the king-sized bed, was big enough.. for me to roll around. :D

After exploring our own room (looking through the drawers, the pamphlets, the menus etc), we checked out the Tennis Court and Swimming Pool and finally decided to go for an hour swim before it closes at 7pm.. The water was quiet. Not a single soul in the pool. All there was were a few foreigners sun-bathing at the side of the pool, despite being an almost sun-less evening.

Special memories during swimming given to ..

1) how Cheeky taught darling to float on her back and swim backwards, rather than her standard Breast Strokes..

2) How Cheeky asked me to count from 1-20 but swam to me within 5 at the 1.5m mark, grabbed my ankle (yuppps, i screamed) and carried me up on his shoulders as if a token of triumph.. =x

3) the competition of who can swim further away with just one breath. And....I lost.

4) the attempts to dive downwards..

5) the piggy-backs..

This has to be, I say for sure the best moments the 2 of us have since Cheeky's return from the US..

Desk and Sofa

The lady has a choice for dinner. To ensure that Cheeky wasnt making all the decisions for the day, he let me choose among the list of dining places he has in mind for us. Here it goes, Triple-3, Pine Court, Chatterbox or in-room dining? I couldnt make up my mind for that. While I thought that in-room dining is gonna be reallly rare, I was afraid that Cheeky wanna have it somewhere else.. Like a tug-a-war, I finally finally chose in-room dining and was glad that it was parallel with Cheeky's initial decision! *grins, grins, grins.*

One of my favourite pics!! ;D

Another favourite pic!

Setting up of the table of food in OUR room!

Really love the look when this man sign off the bill, not for materialistic reasons but the kind of

'air' and masculinity.. =D it took them approximately 25 minutes to deliver our orders up and they were all still piping hot when delivered.

Too much too much.

Dinner was really sumptuous with food from Chatterbox, Triple-3 and maybe some other restaurants from Meritus Mandarin. Especially love the Samosa...really nice! Caesar Salad w Smoked Salmon was nicely complemented too...Crisp, with the fresh salmon.

But dinner is absolute privacy, just the two of us with no restrictions in time. The simple chats over dinner. And the coincidental playing of "The Lakehouse" on HBO has complemented our dinner well with romantic love songs. *glad that we had in-room dinner.

US in the Mirror

We had ourselves lying on the bed, having heart-to-heart talks, or maybe more of a reminisce kinda chat. And even though both of us missed chilling at the Observatory Lounge, we were too full to stomach much of anything. And since I really dont feel like leaving the room... we forgo-ed chilling and enjoyed each other's company just in the room.. ;D

lovelove. chubchub loves *u!

And my only gift and surprise for this very well-deserved man is the newly-launched nano. Bought it off the shelves of I-shop when it's not even officially keyed into shop's system! :D

But it just felt utterly good when I saw how happy he was, even back home when he was fiddling with it..

I was kinda reluctant to sleep that night. Knowing that such isolation would soon be over the moment you sleep. Oh and to mention, while giving Cheeky his weekly massages, on the big bed, it really felt so much easier.... coz you dont get cramp and difficulties massaging one side of the body.

This stay with Cheeky made me realised how one couple can easily indulge in their very own best moments without the interference of the outside world and when u place their in the right environment.. I didnt realised such isolation until I walked out with Cheeky to 'stock-up'. Then had I realised Im already engulfed into the moments belonging to our the 2 of us. It's a very very new experience.

As to why One year or One month? It was with regards to the kind of honeymoon period the two of us are in despite being together for one year. My idiotic smiles for the little actions Cheeky did. To the extent that the kind of sweetness really felt novel, fresh and like those of the usual first few months of couples. I'm extremely, extremely glad that we haven't lose them. And actually, if i really think these through, Cheeky's trip to US had kinda gave the relationship a 'restart', like we have started on fresh grounds.

I recall how things weren't as sweet just before he left..when both of us were on the verge of solving issues for each other, or for self. Whichever way it is.

All of these, I can safely say that we have grown stronger, much much stronger in terms of the understanding, and support (only when needed) we gave each other. The always important comfort level. The certainty of this love. The honesty emphasised. The simplicity of mine which kept your love. The complexity and contemplative that made me fell in you. We've been through the test of time and distance, non-obigatory but self-obligatory showers of concern. It sounded dumb to friends of mine ,when one year ago, i told them that our relationship were on the terms of non-obligatory and maybe even to the extent of an open-relationship. I received overwhelming response saying im insane then. Perhaps nobody..even my siblings didnt know what I was thinking about. But know what? It was such non-obligatory terms and all those mentioned above that brought the love of 2 of us up.

Over this one year, I was always said to be a good gf, a good gal who always deserves to be happy and shouldnt be sad. That even during shitty times when you were in the US, you were blaming yourself for putting those shitty things of yours as part of my burden too. But like I say..shouldnt couples be sharing good times and bad times? For the fact that I know whether I wonder get involved in your unhappiness or not, you have no right to really blame yourself. And being overly understanding, sometimes I tend to make decisions for this man.. thinking too much into the interest of another isnt really good yea? Cheeky hates people to make decisions for him especially when he knows that he chose for a reason, a reason good and convincing enough to keep that choice. Inferiority kicks in at many times with Cheeky. A man so high up there, regardless of intellectual, wit, knowledge, ideas, maturity.. I'm nowhere near. I always have the mindset that whatever I have in my life is nothing compared to everything that Cheeky has in his.

But despite all these, we never had problems. If i recall... the number of times that we really quarrelled can be count within one hand. Sometimes I really still wonder how we were made possible and not only made possible but made to grow beyond our own expectations.

Forgetting all I'm lacking
Completely incomplete
I'll take your invitation
You take all of me now.

8:01 PM

Labels: Anniversary, ecstatic, Extravagance/Fine-Dining, my love :), Reflections, Sweet

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Monday, September 15, 2008

.1 Year or 1 Month?

The Sweet Anniversary has just passed, 45 miutues ago,

but the Sweetness has not.

Happy Anniversary, Cheeky Darling Vampy. :D

updates to come when i've cleared my tests and projects! ;D

12:46 AM

Labels: Anniversary, ecstatic, Indelible memories, my love :), Surreal, Sweet

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Sunday, August 31, 2008

.Chatterbox: It's up there.

28 Aug 08

Cheeky and I revisited Chatterbox at Meritus Mandarin to satisfy his craving for the chicken rice. [To The Previous Visit] Away from the ground floor and relocated high up at the 38th Floor where Top of the M used to be. There was this deja-vu when we took the lift up the 38th floor, when I was brought there during my birthday last year. Sadly, all the deja-vu kinda took a stop when the lift's door open.

We were brought before glass panels where the warmth of the evening shone in glaringly. It was kinda disappointing to see that even Observatory Lounge is no longer there but replaced by Chatterbox too - the chilling area. The dinner area was up the red-carpeted spiral stairs which has lost its magical effects too. It could have been due to the time of the day. Evening being evening brings a different kind of ambience. But still, it was nice 'watching the sunset', which can be considered as Cheeky's first sunset since his return.. Oh, and the thing is...it's not even revolving anymore...

And so, it just made me realised sometimes it's not so much of the location. But it's the location matched with the interior decoration of a place, plus the range and type of patrons it has and the ambience that the restaurant provides via music and probably kind of services provided.

Food in natural lighting

The same yummy Fried Dumpling and Chicken Rice... which has alot alot alot of meat..

This missing man

Oh, and this man has been missing from my cameras for a few months.. The first pics we had since his return... Cheeky being cheeeky...trying to mimic the koon's sleeping look. hahas.

Best Shot of the Day

And 27 & 28 Aug 08 marks one year to the day of our first date! It's probably the only relationship which I actually remember when is the first date..

my all

11:29 PM

Labels: Extravagance/Fine-Dining, happy, my love :)

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Tuesday, August 26, 2008

.Flashbacks

I was listening to Class95 when this song regarding protection was played...didnt really caught the title of the song though as I was lost in my own flashbacks of fond memories.

A simple act on the way to the club. That was the first time. A subtle gentlemaniness displayed by a mere displacement of myself from the outer part of the road, supposedly dangerous to a clumsy one, to the inside where there's double safety - the absence of moving cars and the presence of a 'protector'. And when this act left me with silly and discrete smiles for the night and for the subsequent days when I recalled, I still cant help smiling and feel the sweetness for an act which probably no one pays attention to now.

~Good Nights :D

I pray.
I stay.

1:58 AM

Labels: my love :), Sweet, Time Machine

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Saturday, August 23, 2008

.When I grow up

When I Grow Up by Pussycat Dolls

The new dance song today after Lavigne admitted that Lip Gloss was rather hiphop rather than Reggae. And this choreography is more fun and sexy according to what she said. Wonderful song. It's constantly playing in my mind now.

I was looking at the lyrics of the song or the title of the song even. It made me wonder how vulnerable one may get as we grow up. Ironic to the adage of 'one should get stronger as we grow'. We had so many dreams for life, so much hopes for it when we were younger. I haven experienced it, perhaps like what he said..i'm one of those lucky kids around. Jaded and fearful; uncertainties. The struck of all these. Growing up is not always a good thing..

_____

" You know, when I laid down there...lost for words, yet again. I really wished those hugs could make you feel better. My laughters can be a bit more contagious even if its just for a while. I meant what I said.. to stay by you. To really disrregard the past way of lifestyle; we all adapt isnt it? And I think I or we know whats behind 'The Great Pretender"...and we both didnt say anything until certain times..But I know what it means with the simple words too... 'a big boy'. The ways to handle one is to believe this one knows what he's doing and will confide when he needs to.."

I'm not really considered a very big girl yet..to be totally sensible and even be able to understand the psychology of grown-ups. This has to be examined from a few aspects of psy - developmental, cognitive and perhaps even social psy.. But even at a young age of 19, I understand the need to be able to left alone to solve and think through things. Of course, apparently, this does not apply to everyone of us. Just like how I hate it when I'm down, people began to shower extra care and concern, it's like becoming a little gal again overnight. Just feels so weird, so wrong. It would feel like sympathetic concern or in worst cases, for-show concern.

So essentially, i believe..care and concern are important but not overly excessive to feel abit more real, and more sincere. I think, i think and i think (of coz from my point of view, and most likely applies to myself).. be there silently, like as usual..and only speak when need to. Yet, it's a dilemma of how to strike a balance in giving when you consider the possible factors.. the effects of it when you give more or give less. But I think this man here works pretty much the same way as I do in this area; perhaps w a slight difference.

~playing 'Miss you in a Heartbeat' by Def Leppard.

crown of scars

11:02PM

Labels: Dance, Media, my love :), Reflections

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Monday, August 18, 2008

.Spinning Butterfly

Spinning Butterfly, UP!

Will you stay awake for me?
I don't wanna miss anything.
12:32 AM

Labels: my love :)

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Saturday, August 16, 2008

.Real hugs and kisses, anytime.:D

I'm back!

Like the previous post suggest, yupps!! Cheeky has arrived in Singapore 5days ago, safely and happier! :D

I remember how things were so surreal on the first night, Tues Morning. The first first thing we did the moment I hopped onto his car was endless kisses and hugs; like yea, we missed each other for two long months. Back home, beside the familiar double decker bed with some changes in the room, I watched him unpack his evidence of consumerism...for sure, it's more scary than I had imagined. He did bought alot alot of stuff..And even in the process of unpacking, the 'cant-help-it' factor made him gave me kisses and hugs here and there.. =x.. :D
And I always thought the look he has during packing or unpacking is funny.. hahas* Oh, and I received 3 tops and this spinning butterfly window thingy from him. hahas, I don't know what it's called.

And really..on the first night and perhaps even until the second day.. the whole feeling of having each other by each other's side is just like a surreal wonderland.. Like exactly what he said.. "it's like the soul is not in the body''. Things we couldnt believe it. And I just didnt knew how much I really miss holding his hands and walk together (yupps, even that.) until bedtime.

And bedtime is always the best best time at home. Not coz of a piggy-mindset but it's the kind of warmth I have there for me (since normally only i'm feeling cold) under the blanket. The slow drift-away from consicous in his arms, beside the soft thumping heartbeat. And the laughing at each other moments and koon's constant laughter, the fun before bedtime! Hahas, and suddenly I tot of the rotating of the blanket to the right side. hahahas. The being laughed at rolling and the curlings.

And next day, finally, we had dinner together at home at 10PM! Oh yes, coz we woke up super late. And i meant..super. hahas. Missing the eating dinner at home times terribly. To me, eating at home is always an exclusive thing we have together, before the TV.

Well, this week..though it's the first week of school...Cheeky was the priority, to the extent that I skipped lectures which I think may not be important. I only attended GEK1529 ever since his return =x

And I really miss those words said face-to-face. Like 'little darling', 'cute' and so on and so on. It's gonna be an endless list.

14 Aug 08

Happy 11 Months!

:DD

Just two days after his arrival, it's the 11th anniversary. And seriously, I don't feel the real need for this anniversary to be celebrated outside the house. Just in the house... it still feels good, like afterall..it's still being with the significant one that matters.

As the clock begans to tick closer to 12a.m, signalling the end of this day and just as I turned to the com trying to start my webcast.. A black case 'popped out' in front of me.

Goodness. It's a watch! And I always always love watches..! Watches, locks and keys always have a special meaning for me but I just can't explain how and what.

"It's a watch!" I asked. Next, I asked.."Can I open it?" And of course i'm greeted with a 'Of course!"

Thank you my dear. I Love the gift! Another really pretty watch for me! Yayys! :)

Ticking in pink.

It's such a lovely feeling to be together, side by side...

You no longer hold the same status, not like years before.

know your limits well.

(nope. im not talking bout Cheeky nor myself)

8:32 PM

Labels: ecstatic, Indelible memories, my love :)

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Tuesday, August 12, 2008

.Surprise Return?

A Quick Post!

The long wait and countdowns are over!! :D

Cheeky (hmphs) 'surprising' return...

:DD

In a short while!

1:00 AM

Labels: my love :)

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Tuesday, July 15, 2008

.A smart baby

happy birthday to YOU :)

Labels: my love :)

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Monday, July 14, 2008

.love love :)

Happy 10 Months! :)

One month and more of absence from each other's life. Logging in online just to have chats that may not last very long. Web-cams in the most unglam yellow specs and intellectualled look. Getting back to independent-self. Getting excited seeing "Withheld" calling on my phone. This one month..Still so in love..! Really how I need to get my daily dose of Cheeky via at least an emails...like refreshing the inbox page whenever I'm free at work...before I realised that getting such daily dose indeed is not a very good idea.. And yes..we've gone through that.. ^^

Another month to go! ^^

Despite time differences and the distance apart.. it didnt fade. :)

*happy happy to talk to YOU!

I have a fisherman!

I want a kiss ;p

5:13 PM

Labels: Anniversary, my love :)

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Sunday, July 13, 2008

.Waiting

The idea of waiting.

I think it requires some kind of a patience, anticipation and faith. Patience to remain as you are regardless of the time you have waited. Anticipation that you can have the desired. Faith to believe that it will appear.

Waiting is never difficult. It is difficult only when what you have waited for didnt appear..

Attributing the cause to all the external factors such as a lack of fate; the arrangement of life; the joke(s) in life. And we took turns to receive the disappointment, took turns to self-console, took turns to be understanding.

At the end of the day, such waiting(s) are just a bonafide sample of yearning and love. You can't really deny it even though at times getting used to it essentially made urself lose faith in yourself. But so much things that happened just proved urself wrong, so wrong. That in the moment, in these moments.. only he count.

You're my chocolate..

4:52 PM

Labels: inner voices, my love :)

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Thursday, July 10, 2008

.Could It be My Wish or Your Wish?

I HAD this impulse.
I HAVE this wish.

It's a fantasy again, I think.

But I have to admit what could be better than that? Having to spend one of those most meaningful days with someone you love. To frame up the almost impossible memories in the perfect frame. Then again, it's never impossible.

I asked myself..."Do you think you can do it?"
The inner voices did echoed a "YES, I think I can!"
But when all other factors come in, then it seems like I have to give up the perfect frame.

I imagined myself to be standing in the middle of utter unfamiliarity..only to retract that and tell myself.."Well, it's just an imagination"

And do you know that imagination makes people excited? Or maybe..it's just me.

Hahas, but visual encounters gave a slap on the face of my imagination and impulse.

...

A tight slap.

The same old plans

1:18 AM

Labels: inner voices, my love :)

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Monday, June 16, 2008

.All Over The Place

13 June 08 - Friday, IT show

For the first time, I went to the IT roadshow as a patron and not a salesperson. That's coz I avoid going to such a crowded place if I'm not working there.. I know how noisy the place is, how squeezy and sometimes getting to the ladies require half an hour to move through the buzzing crowd. The last time I worked there, if i'm not wrong was 2 years ago. When I saw how the salesperson from each booth enthusiastically go towards you to serve you, it reminds me of those days when I just grab anyone, trying to gauge who seems to close a deal for me with higher potential.. commission issues, camera usage issues, free-gifts issues, attitude issues, etc..

I ALMOST got myself a panasonic camera which really seems pretty good. But coz Sis made me so pissed that we have to step out of the Halls and in the end I decided I should not buy on temptation, impulse..and shall spend the money on somewhere else!

Dinner on friday night plus with sis is especially troublesome. She wanna avoid queues, wanna avoid places that serves lotsa meat, of average range in terms of price, dont wan pasta, dont want ramen...ZZZz. Hence we walked all the way from Marina Square to Millenia walk when she finally semi-reluctantly agreed to Mushroom POt...which I haven been there before too.

The sisters

Sis seems to be another one with Chronic fatigue and probably worse than cheeky. LOlx.

Indeed, MUSHROOMS.

Apparently the places serves steamboat and ala-carte as well. I had the Sweet and Sour Monkey Head Mushroom and yes...it's all MUshrooms...rather than what I thought...(Sweet & Sour Pork).. It was nice but given that there are so many mushrooms, in the soup as well...can get quite sick of it.

Sis's Pork Ribs of course cant be made of mushrooms. hahas. So instead of the VEG salad that I have, hers was a mushroom-based, which tasted pretty nice...tasted kinda japanese. And the Soft-shell crab look alike dish with wasabe mayo was ALSO mushrooms.

Indeed, MUSHROOM POT.
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14 June 08-Saturday, CAC Dry-Run

After days and days of considering whether to go for the dry-run or not, I dragged myself out of the bed at my usual time that I woke up for work only to see a gloomy sky. I could have have a wonderful sleep at home.

Disappointment beckons the moment Jeff, Qiuhan and I reached Palawan Beach. Instead of a large group of people whom we expect to see, we saw only a small group of about 10 people. Sad to say, we were the only 3 councilors out of the five in total. It certainly brings about the thought of ' I shouldnt have come :( '

While many of the games seem familiar to last-year's one..SOME of the games are still quite fun.

A familiar place

And I almost didnt remember the wonderful memories up in that little hut months ago until I saw that again. Miss it, despite the sucky humid weather..

Fluffy CLOuds

Dry-Run in action

koon's smiley face :)

After the dry-run, the few of us began to buy with our own beach volleyball w an ultra light ball...I wonder is it coz of that that I'm having the aches on the hand. If not, what else?

Lunch

Guys just keep getting hungry yea? Jeff just had breakfast at around 10am yet at 1pm...he's feeling the hunger. While Jeff and I were rushing for some other places after that, we gotto have a semi-quick lunch. Jeff's hot and spicy noodles, my sweet corn soup and qiuhan's fried rice.

Meeting with '!!!'

We began our shopping all the way from Far East Plaza, to Tangs, to Wisma, Taka. All of us had something to buy in mind! I wanna get jogging shoes, bags, clothes, dance shoes, flats and many more! While the less greedy goey wanna get a pair of high heels...and sis wanna get the korean-style clothes.

Comfty sofa to Rest Our Soles and body

Unlike the past when I have frequent trainings..nowadays I cant shop for ONE WHOLE day...partly due to my back too. I cant walk too long as I cant stand properly after walking too long a time. BADBADBAD.

CHORE

Dinner on a Saturday night is an insane chore. Imagine long queues everywhere and in the end, we spent like 2hours for dinner including finding and queuing. From our carve of soupy stuff, we had limited choice and so we gave in to Fish & Co, which is of TOTAL opposite..

Those shots. hahas.

As all the shops at Taka was closed at around 10pm, we began making use of the place to take crazy shots..and it just made me laugh non-stop..

LOVE this '!!!'.hahas

And this is the winner of the night, in my view. They had to act more than once before i took it sucessfully coz I just couldnt stop laughing....

And I got myself a bag and a Yellow sandals..wow! Goey got her heels which im so in love with too....but no, too many heels recently. hahas.REfrain!

While sis, got herself a green scarf...and a ultimate comfortable white flats.

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17 June 08- Much of a Rest day

Despite being my only rest day for the week..or rather my sleep-in day..I have to wake up early to see the Doc for my back since he closes at 1pm.

The rubs and the crackings were bad. It's was so painful that I started yelling..as he rubbed from the lower back to the butt and the sides of the hips..(which was the worst!).. And then he pulled my legs up and cracked it and said...the bone kinda went off the position...arghs.

After which he used the cup-like thing to suck onto the back and it HURTS like HELL when he moved it across the hips and butts...terrible pain. imagine...when I dont usually yell bout pains..

And now... I'm left with circles of blue blacks on my back and butt...still hurts though..but i think its the blue-black pain, well hopefully.

I'm advised to swim more, at least twice a week..(once is fine..twice may be a lil hard)so that the back can be stronger and to balance the position of the bones. No Cold drinks. Better not to jog (nono, dont think i can really do that) and i'm on some weird medication now..stretch more...

Thank you Dad who brought me to the doc.. :)
I got my nike jogging shoes..
And once in a while thing, Dad said he'll pay for my expensive doc fees, and my relatively cheap jogging shoes!

Back home, I web-cam-ed with Jer..!! Woo...I almost gave up waiting after sitting before the lappie for 2 hours..thinking he has probably went to bed...BUt just as I brought my laptop to be put on the floor beside my bed ( I haven give up totally...just hoping that in case he logins and i can still hear the alert in my nap) And just as I was gonna close my laptop's LCD, an alert came and he came online!

Chatted w him for like 1.5hrs and got my updates on the cheeky!!

Xiang said..I must be smiling like an idiot ..hees. Well..yea, yes, yuppss. ;p

Love you the most!
its difficult to be obsessive and non-sticky, but i am. ;p

2:24 PM

Labels: Dine, Family, Friendship, happy, my love :), Myself

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Wednesday, June 11, 2008

.careless

did a recovery for my laptop last night despite being damn tired and strained on the disappointing back...It just keep giving me problems..it makes me feel a few years older than weeks ago AGAIN. Looks like I have to drop by the doc soon, hopefully within this week.

I guess I just dont have the patience to wait for something that I expect to be prompt.. Hence I did the recovery and waited until all the important programmes especially MSN, Anti-virus and web-cam, devices and softwares are installed before i collapsed onto my bed..

And only to find out in the midst of the recovery that I lost some photos for Jaan..it really made my heart break..like...WHAT?! I just cant believe it man. Fortunately, i loaded MOST of the pics to a web album in the afternoon..so i managed to retrieve most of the photos but not all.. and not in the initial best quality.. :(

So now, i see the importance of making multiple back-up of files and photos especially. Dont wanna be so careless again.. Zzz.

so glad that i uploaded 'em..

and also since xl says the photos are a little too little... here you go :p

On a sidenote, my day started well today despite a night of frustrating laptop issues~ I received a long-distanced call from someone special.. :)' Though, my background was not as quiet as i wished it will be.. It just makes my day float into the clouds.. ^^

tonight will be the night i fall for you all over again

3:43 PM

Labels: happy, my love :), Myself

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Sunday, June 08, 2008

Jaan

I was amazed at the view across the Equinox Complex at Swissotel the moment I stepped out of the lift which brought me up to the 70th Floor. Each distinct colourful, minute city lights combine to form a huge map of magnificent landscape..

Withdrawing myself from the mind-blowing views, I began to look for Jaan. Turning my head, left and right..and I saw a sign that resembles the "J" in Jaan which I have seen over the days of my research.. Jaan is hidden in a deep corner that isolates itself into a posh and cosy silent ambience.

Reaching Jaan about 20 mins before cheeky as he went to look for a parking lot in Raffles City, I was presented with the all-too-familiar restaurant's menu. I flipped through the exorbitant delicacy still cant decide what to have for the night.

Before the arrival of the king of the week, I was sorta entertained by a Caucasian waiter in black suit and tall build. He even joked that he can accompany me for dinner if my date is not turning up. But well, of coz my cheeky is coming! It's my first dinner treat for him and he fetched chubby there!

The cosiness in the modern background

Absorbing the ambience of the cosy little place which seats only 60 patrons, Cheeky arrived shortly and agreed that the place is really cosy..

And finally it's time to open my present, in my previous post, the same waiter walked past and passed a cheeky look. For some odd reasons, I felt a little shy and saw myself like the actress in some dramas..especially from the moment of opening the red little box to the moment when cheeky puts it on for me :D

Complimentary from the Chef

Upon making our orders for the dinner, we were served with the Complimentary from the Chef. We had raw salmon, a very small piece one (I ate it man!) The texture was smooth and didnt had the fishy taste instead of light fragrant.

The Pita bread sticks on the other hand were displayed in a flower-vase like manner. Each of them is one long crunchy stick that goes well with the sauce and rich butter.

Couple on the Munch :)

Cheeky told me that the Pita bread Sticks are probably those used for the pizza crust..I think it is lightly fragrant and not over-hard and complement the sauce and butter in a subtle taste.

Maybe the fan of Snails

Bacon And Potato Ballotine, Hazelnut-Goat Cheese Croquette
Parsley Gnocchi Coulant

It took us some time to realise which part is exactly the Snail.. No. It's not the big black ball of Bacon and Potato Ballotine which was awesome. You wont get sick of it. Slightly moist and pieces of bacon stuffed in it. What I love most about this dish, unfortunately, is not the snails but the Hazelnut-Goat Cheese Croquette..which I claim to be amazing. The crispy crust outside, only to reveal a pinkish white inside which is totally different from the common potato croquette! I really love that!

As for the snails, it's tucked below the bacon and potato ballotine mix with mushrooms. With both the mushrooms and snails being black..its kinda difficult to distinguish which is which at first. It then all boils down to tasting and differentiating by the texture of the two.

Well above the normal pigeons

Confit Of Swiss Chard, Rhubarb Chutney, Jus Au Cacao

The signature dish under ''The Earth".

Like the way it is being described, the Pigeon De Bresse found under 'The Earth' is whipped up using herbs, some sauce that resulted in a salty taste. It comes with Apricot Sauce and garnished with crispy cinnamon sticks. I took a bite from the cinnamon sticks and its quite yummy.

While Cheeky initially wanted to get some duck dishes..since french ducks are so nice..the Pigeon, i believed, scored better than what he had expected. To be more tender, and to smell more than a bird and most importantly not really taste like a chicken. And cheeky likes it better without the sauce...which is...this way most of the time. hahas.

Under the Foam

Galantine Of Lobster Tail And Chicken Mousse In Sweet And Bitter Endive
Cannelloni Of Lobster Claws With Artichokes, Pernod Jus

My pick? Another signature dish but under 'The Sea'. The Maine Lobster 2 ways.. I preferred the Cannelloni of Lobster claws which is wrapped in crepe-like layer..It's much softer and easier to nibble compared to the Galantine of Lobster Tail and Chicken Mousse which is wrapped in, i think its own skin. It makes it so hard for me to cut. Then again, it fufilled the cutting crave well.

And, the sweet sauce is aptly done to my liking as sauce is always important to me ;p. It's not too sweet, not puking sweet maybe coz it's mixed well with the Bitter Endive..(my guess).

All in all, nice. sweet and non-troublesome lobster..! :) Probably one of those nicest lobster i've eaten before, especially in such a different style.

it smells too good, and taste as great

cute cheeky ><

The Magical Melt

Milk Chocolate Cremeux, Mandarin Espuma, Grapefruit Vanilla Sorbet

It took us some time to decide whether or not we should have desserts.. But since we are there and I wont forsee us to be back there any sooner...we should just try. Like any other posh places, the chocolate sphere costs 22 bucks. And in my opinion? It didnt bring out the magical amazement like the Morton's Hot Choc Cake or Top of the M's Seven Sins, sadly.

Nevetheless, the chocolate sphere did came in a really round sphere with a golden stripe, facing me, on it. With the pouring of the chocolate fudge onto the sphere, the sphere began to melt and dent in and became the deformed sphere above.. Blended sweetness and bitterness and refreshing with the grapefruit vanilla sorbet, with a hard chocolate layer outside.

Us against the city

A man of good body for the night. hahas. It will be such a waste to not cam-whore in such a beautiful background.. It looks almost it's some places of casino at the background.

An advance 9 months celebration

We stayed all the way beyond the closing time which was supposedly to be 11pm. But, we left the place at 11.20pm, with an even more quiet Jaan.

Side-track alil, the next table had a funny encounter when this ball rolled away from their plate of desserts when served. hahas.

Surrounded by Cityspace, New Asia Bar and Equinox.

Just outside Jaan, we were presented with the real-awesome view of Singapore citylights. I agree with Cheeky that it is the best place for overviewing the city. And my purpose of changing my plans from the Jap restaurant to Jaan is to enjoy the city lights of Singapore with Cheeky the last time before he flies off to the US. Well, i hope my purpose is fulfilled and he enjoyed the time spent. :)

You wont feel the heartache at all as long as you see the value in it.. Like for the first time, im feeling this way. .. It matters more than anything else to see moments being created

Good Bye my dear.. :(

Thats probably his last view of Singapore before he left. And at this point in time when i'm blogging..he's already far far away from me..

And i agree with what many people have told me..it will be damn unbearable in the beginning.. .. Indeed.

it begins

4.59 PM

Labels: Anniversary, Extravagance/Fine-Dining, Indelible memories, my love :)

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Saturday, June 07, 2008

. a sparkling surprise :)

He handed me a SK paper bag just before we left the house for Jaan at Swissotel. The hardly surprised soul received the surprise in the form of a delayed happiness.

I didnt exclaim the moment I received the red paper bag coz still accepting this surprise in sweetness and yea, real surprise, in abit of a shock. I didnt expect it at all. No instint at all this time.

Yet I was still kept in suspense in not supposed to open nor peep until we are seated in Jaan.

I was asked to guess the item inside. My guess? A necklace, judging from the paper bag. Cheeky being cheeky, he told me it's a watch but not a Guess watch..which led me to rack my brains over the available brands of watch in the market...I didnt really believe it totally though. Why would he tell me the answer all of a sudden..hahas.

Opening the red pyramidal box, i felt the rush of excitement, anticipation and happiness.. :) The second gift i'm receiving from Cheeky... :)))

opening the red box while peeping..

and thats what chubby koon got... A SK diamond necklace! Indeed, a first diamond necklace ...and it gets nicer and nicer when I look at it.

Appreciated the gift my dear :). Despite the fact that you are in need of money now...you still got me such an expensive gift.. thanks alotsa..alotsa! And now, I have another lovely gift to accompany me for that 2 months, reminding me of cheeky's company. :D Thanks, my sweet darling ^^

And the entry for dining at Jaan will be coming next.. :))

you made the moments.
:)

6:01 AM

Labels: Anniversary, Indelible memories, my love :), Surreal, Sweet

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