When I Grow Up by Pussycat Dolls

The new dance song today after Lavigne admitted that Lip Gloss was rather hiphop rather than Reggae. And this choreography is more fun and sexy according to what she said. Wonderful song. It's constantly playing in my mind now.

I was looking at the lyrics of the song or the title of the song even. It made me wonder how vulnerable one may get as we grow up. Ironic to the adage of 'one should get stronger as we grow'. We had so many dreams for life, so much hopes for it when we were younger. I haven experienced it, perhaps like what he said..i'm one of those lucky kids around. Jaded and fearful; uncertainties. The struck of all these. Growing up is not always a good thing..

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" You know, when I laid down there...lost for words, yet again. I really wished those hugs could make you feel better. My laughters can be a bit more contagious even if its just for a while. I meant what I said.. to stay by you. To really disrregard the past way of lifestyle; we all adapt isnt it? And I think I or we know whats behind 'The Great Pretender"...and we both didnt say anything until certain times..But I know what it means with the simple words too... 'a big boy'. The ways to handle one is to believe this one knows what he's doing and will confide when he needs to.."

I'm not really considered a very big girl yet..to be totally sensible and even be able to understand the psychology of grown-ups. This has to be examined from a few aspects of psy - developmental, cognitive and perhaps even social psy.. But even at a young age of 19, I understand the need to be able to left alone to solve and think through things. Of course, apparently, this does not apply to everyone of us. Just like how I hate it when I'm down, people began to shower extra care and concern, it's like becoming a little gal again overnight. Just feels so weird, so wrong. It would feel like sympathetic concern or in worst cases, for-show concern.

So essentially, i believe..care and concern are important but not overly excessive to feel abit more real, and more sincere. I think, i think and i think (of coz from my point of view, and most likely applies to myself).. be there silently, like as usual..and only speak when need to. Yet, it's a dilemma of how to strike a balance in giving when you consider the possible factors.. the effects of it when you give more or give less. But I think this man here works pretty much the same way as I do in this area; perhaps w a slight difference.

~playing 'Miss you in a Heartbeat' by Def Leppard.

crown of scars

11:02PM

Labels: Dance, Media, my love :), Reflections

doodled at Saturday, August 23, 2008 by koon | Doodlelink |