It takes a year or even less, the most two for one to find out what's your weakest subjects academically. It takes about that amount of time for one to know which areas are you generally weak on, paralysed..

But it takes half a lifetime, perhaps the whole of it with the right attitude and reflections to even identify your weakest weakest personality traits. Unlike things mentioned above, personality traits are not as avoidable. It's so inside you.

I'm beginning to see all these supposedly good traits of myself to be bad. Blind optimism, that's what i always hear from vampy, from one who's jaded in life. Am I suffering from that too? I always wished I didnt. I wished that good things, good people exist. It could sometimes make me feel like crying when I think of the sad things on this planet. Why can't people believe that good things exist? That people do out of good-will than for the benefit of self?

The society is intolerant of soft-heartedness. In a place where one bites another to get a piece of that something, a piece of that something... Soft-hearted creatures are a prey. It's such exploitative relations that made me so scared now. So scared of myself. When will soft-heartedness land me in trouble...again?

Neither can many people tolerate considerate souls. Thinking for others in their shoes too much is tiring but un-stoppable. Sometimes you just wished you could stop. Oh man, even for strangers...you do that? You're an idiot.

i remembered I did this test on facebook before:

Yes, and obviously putting others before myself is my weakest link.

So trusting that when people throw all things at you, when people 'convinced' you that they has nothing to lie to you...you believed. Because you believe good people exist. Because you are soft-hearted, when you see one's disappointment.

Of all these, the root problem is?..... Stupidity. Ash.k, you're out of this world's game.

Time to reflect and pray.

10:41 PM