I was listening to Class95 when this song regarding protection was played...didnt really caught the title of the song though as I was lost in my own flashbacks of fond memories.

A simple act on the way to the club. That was the first time. A subtle gentlemaniness displayed by a mere displacement of myself from the outer part of the road, supposedly dangerous to a clumsy one, to the inside where there's double safety - the absence of moving cars and the presence of a 'protector'. And when this act left me with silly and discrete smiles for the night and for the subsequent days when I recalled, I still cant help smiling and feel the sweetness for an act which probably no one pays attention to now.



~Good Nights :D


I pray.
I stay.

Labels: my love :), Sweet, Time Machine

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As we are drawn closer to the deadlines, we fell deeper.
Closer to the deadlines, the deadlines got further away from us.


Yes, months ago we were talking about deadlines optimistically. From a one month fling to a longer official 6 months before we thought, maybe..maybe it's a year. All these deadlines discussed werent in the fear of an end, a loss or hurtful moments. We were and are the advocates for "enjoying the moments'.



I dipped in with half the mind of seeking fun and romance and half in wariness.
Now, im swimming in the deep oceans soaked in deep love and experiencing the surprises of corals and creatures i've met. So comfortable with sea creatures friends i have made that im in reluctance mode to return to land. Every creature is a moment to remember. ..

The dating times when my life was in a huge huge mess. When I could find nobody to confide in, be it be nobody or my own unwillingness. I seek a little reason for me to continue smiling. Simple messages strengthened my soul bit by bit.

Despite being incredibly dumb, im glad. Glad that at least it could make you smile. Glad that maybe, hopefully it rids off the stress from ur hustle and bustle of work and life.

The relieve sounds that we gave out together upon my completion of each star. Seems like nothing much but its like a candy to me. Real Sweet. A signal of unity and joy at that instant.

Tight hugs to keep me warm. Covering me with blankets. Little pats on my head, chin. Times that you dun wanna me to face the wall. Laughed at me rolling, stretching on the bed.....

Those intellectual look with a lil of unkempted hair, yet still trying to maintain a style in it...

The introspection moments that forced me to give ya an answer no matter what with appropriate cue questions most of the times...

The driving guy who's no doubt in the focus mode and yet still singing away signalling happiness.

Cheeky tone, expression, words, actions.

Every celebratory moments that were marked w ways to pamper me and then having to live a much frugal life after that. To cheekily say that its another emotional blackmail and shut me up w my dumb look...

To give me hugs when u realised i might tear..

To cheekily comment on physical attributes.

To fulfil my long lost fairytale dreams during my birthday..

everything
so much more.......................................................................

i feel so bloated with words yet i cant look for the right content nor words to say everything that's sitting in my mind, unorganised.


the moments.the moments. the moments.
im glad i was curious then

6:20 PM

Labels: my love :), Sweet, Time Machine

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CHINESE NEW YEAR '08





yayys! Chinese New Year Eve and in approx 30 mins time,Chinese New Year is officially here!

Haven had dinner w my family on the same table for a long long time! We always eat separately it seems, at different time too.



Still love the kind of festive mood that CNY brings along! When the whole house gets brightened up and the hall is playing the CNY countdown programme(which i don watch since the age of like...hmm cant remember) And my parents would be there laying the goodies and fruits on the table preparing to offer to the gods.



Unlike in the past where we used to run along the corridors while Dad pray..nowadays, the three of us each occupy a space of ourselves doing our own playing, msn-ing,etc. I would say..as you grow up..the festive mood gets lesser and lesser. Nevetheless,CNY is still one of my favourite festival. Miss the days when I tagged along with mum to buy new year goodies.For the joy lies in the being able to choose like a lil kid!

A slacker cny relative to last year..
happy cny!


havefun!

Labels: Family, Time Machine

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NOSTALGIA


When my phone rang, a familiar number appeared. It reminds me of the days back when i was looking for a job. A familiar voice was transmitted..and yupss...it was karen. As she started asking me bout work ive done months ago, my mind seems to teleport itself back to the small SERI office, standing beside the photocopy machine, binding hard on those 40 sets of course notes and then placing them in Prof Tan's room..thinking of the scene when I talked to Yihui..recalling how i split each set of the notes..The happy times of the working as well as the bitter fear that lingered in the air when K is around.. For that moment, i tot i was back at in the same time..especially when...she wasnt just a boss THEN..more than that..the kind of respect ive to give her...hmm yea..diff.

PLus when she asked me qns on what happened to wayne and me..ahahas...ive no idea how to answered that. Somehow managed to divert her attention a lil..

but yea..this reminds me of what is mentioned in the 'emotions' lecture..Nostalgia is one of the very few emotions that can be positive and negative at the SAME time..i cant really explain how it works...this emotion thing but somehow i think its true...with some kind of a yearning for happiness in the past yet with a little of bitter or sadness sometimes. hahas.nahs.......still sounds wrong.. oh well..if u can explain that kind of feeling, do let me know. hahas!


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On a side note, this semi-gd friend of mine,used to be extremely crazy gd fren, got hospitalised. And i skipped lecture to visit her. Haven meet her for a long long time and im so scared that before i see her she's gone..

DIdnt expect that the time when i meet her is when she's lying down there helplessly waiting to be operated. BUT BUT definitely she's fine, im sure. I really really pray hard that u'll recover soon! Walk, Jog, Run, Jump and do all sorta activities.

Seeing you lying on the bed..immobile..cant really lift ur hands as well...haix. and all i can do is to feed u milo and water. But no matter what, Get well soon!



its ALL unexpected

Labels: Reflections, Time Machine

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-RANDOM-

has been recalling the culture shocks i received last week. Still trying to digest them. While i think some stuff are okae, i still cant accept the fact that some people just talk to each other with a kind of grading system aldy rooted in mind. This is so sad.

Labels: Reflections, Time Machine, Uni-

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