*pouts*

im having a headache now!

everything is different every day.
Having a partner means u have one more thing to worry. =(
despite my advices to ask him to accept this and that...me myself cant.

im so afraid that i wld become too materialistic just 2 or 3 years ltr, for there is too much uncertainty.

as i always believe...
A gal of a certain capability, acheivements and status should not match a guy below of her. If there is a need, not too far below.


i dunnoe how myself would think 2 yrs ltr.
all this are because..
2 yrs ago...true love is never wat i am soughting for.
its too surreal to be real.
haha.

just someone enough to care for me...and give me a comfortable stable life.
i dont ask for a luxury life and dun see that as a need because i was never from a rich family.
i came from an average-income family where some months of ours are so poor that dad has to resort to borrowing from our savings and mom had to skip her meals.


too many things to think. i feel like letting out cries after cries!
but i will think positively for now though the headache is getting worse.


i wish i would get drunk.




koOnie was here on...
-5.39 p.m-4th July 06-

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