MOVE up on one post..nice song..meaningful!

你有权利情绪化
你不一定要坚强
便有些事情不能伪装
别为自己设了框
我懂失去的悲伤
也懂进退的挣扎
但想起过去都是失望又何必要放不下
是习惯还是爱 不放心还是不甘心
只有你自己知道解答
其实你没有那么爱他 真的不需要那么想他
编织过的梦想自己也可以抵达
谁说一定要有他其实你没有那么爱他
没有深陷到不可自拔认清了真心话你就放得下
深呼吸抬头望发现天空很宽广这世界那么大幸福总会在某个地方
其实你没有那么爱他 真的不需要那么想他
拥有过的计划留给值得的对象 你知道不会是他
其实你没有那么爱他 没有深陷到不可自拔认清了真心话你就放得下

EVERYBODY MOVE FORWARD IN LIFE!

^fan wei qi's 没那么爱他^

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i jus remembered! i still gt things to say.

i have been having nitemares these few nites. all about chemistry. omg, that's serious manx~
i dreamt that after i have drop my chem, wat i did during the breaks..thats stoopid..i ttot.
it's really scary.scaryyy.scarrrrryyyy.
tml, tml i'm gonna hand in the subject dropping form.
its after i have decided to drop my chemistry..the pressure in my mind increased.
the pressure of the need to score in my other subjects esp physics.

days are passing veri soon nowadays, even weekdays.
it jus shot past like a rifle bullet...so fast..no use chasing after it but..i'll try!

HmmmM...folks....think bout REALITY & DREAMS..shall we?
yea, i will. its a topic in my mind for some time. but i'm kinda lazy to type wat has been in mind..i will type it in the next entry=)

^i believe in myself^

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yoys....i'm back from my PW meeting from woodlands....serkun's hse. haha....we discussed stuff for bout 4 hrs but i think there seems to be nth much done....so..ya..=X

jien is at my hse nw. oh no..she has grown plumper again!...lolx..muz go and check out wat she ate then cannt eat those stuff...*DANGER* haha...kkaes..jk..

she is more mischievous now!....calling my phone fr my hse phone to chat wif me! haha

kaes....go n have my dinner!

^pressure-D^

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nothing special today. lolx.

except for that sth that i feel great about it is that..i cooked for the family today!

llolx...not the meals.
but i prepared dessert for the family while everyone is still aslp!
i cooked...

....
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Apple and white fungus dessert!..yuMS!...of coz...its nice..haha..not that i 不要脸 but its true!....its a veri healthy and cooling dessert=)

^yummie^

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i'm tired!...lolx...yea....folks..gotta important thing to say. i am more or less decided to drop chemistry. yea. final decision i guess.
i am quite sad actually..i mean...to give up on a subject that i love during the secondary school days. and..imagaine i am gg back to bartley and collect the award on performing well on chemistry. and when peeps ask.."oh...i have drop chem"...lollllx...wat kind of nonsense is this?!!!

I do agree that it sounds stoopid but..well i really hope that i'll have time more other stuff...hopefully my other subjects will ACE at the end of the year...i will work hard!..esp for phy!...i muz do well!!!!....same goes to jerica n minyuan. i will make full use of my time and be a hardworking ger during my extra breaks...^.^

llolx....gers in my class are all small gluttons yea?...of coz, including me. i stayed in sch doing nth much in sch today all the way until 630pm..surprise?...i am surprised too. llolx...it's actually jC 1 parents meeting today..my pareents din go n thus naturally, i need not stay too. haha..but, me..jerica..minyuan and jiahui stayed..initially waiting for each other n go town...note..INITIALLY~~..llolx...we ended up taking the buffet food...thou they were for parents..."/ haha..well..ya..quite nice.

in the end..we ended up going..HOme..llolx..after which i meet jerica at hg plaza to play pool..first time..haha..shall mark the day down..coz usually i aso dun realli feel lilke gg out wif jc frens...so ya..=x...llolx.....wow...super tired now..my eyes are painful..

llolx...sth happie today too..that worth mentionong i think..to think that while mdm han was commenting abt complexion..she said that my was veri gd...hheex...yays!!...at least my money din go into the drain...it flew up!...llolx..but i still think there are place for improvements!...definitly..coz its nt yet perfect. i'll go back to the doc soon...in the process of saving uP...haha....

i will miss everythin in chem..but i will nt regret wat i chose.
i will ensure that my decisions are worth it!
('o')
^determined^

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LiGHt
uP
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RoOm
wi+H
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(=SmiLe=)

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i forged dad's signature on the parental consent form.
i went to the registration counter to register.
Everythin was fine.
I was allowed to donate blood [thou w/o parent's consent coz they dun allow.]
Next stop, blood pressure ....then the first scary part!

[][]][][] CHECK my IRON in my BLOOD!..by "stapling my middle finger!"[][][][][][][][]

it was a little painful...and while i am pressing the cotton wool against the small wound...i can feel blood gushing or rather...flowing out..lolx..

i look at the stretches bed....feelin afraid.
It's finally my turn!! =)
*scared*

the nurse came and "search" for my veins or rather..artery?....
at last..she told me...I DUN THINK YU CAN DONATE....arrr!! coz my veins or rather [nt sure of the exact name] is too thin.....aiyoxxx...she told me to exercise more...and go back 3 mths later if i wan...........arrrr....i am pOKE for nth in the first place...yu noe ...the middle finger.....so....绍兴!

^blood donation^

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What happens when...

the one yu likes...kept tellin yu bout someone else?
yu dun noe how does yu feel for somebody?
missing somebody makes yu feel like breakin down?
things doesnt turn out the way yu wish to anymore?
things starts to go an alternative route?
u seem to feel happie...yet sad somehow...doesnt feel anythin?

perharps...juz bo chap ALL!

^wat will happen?^

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yays...finally received letter from bartley! to attend its commendation ceremony. sad to say...it's receiving a prize for performing well in chemistry only...not for the O's....sob..no money take, i guess..lolx.. nvm la...quite happy..but it's on the 8th aUg 7.30am!...omg ..its so earlY!.....7.30AM!....hmmmmmmm

^letter fr. bsS^

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i finally finish typing my PW research stuff!...come to think of it, time really flies! i remember..few months ago, we are juz grp into our PW groups...brooding over wat topic to do...how to do???!...whether to trust MR khor or not.. rushing our PI then gpp. now...it seems like everythin gonna be over soon. very fast....it will be the WR...EOM then i&R!...haha...and jc life seems to be passing by me soon too. It has aldy been 7 mths plus since i am in jc life..come to think of it...secondary sch life seems to be a decades compared to jc life..lolx..very soon....it will be promos..and hopefully i can go up to year 2. New challenges are awaiting for me!

[goey] jiayu on ur organic chem!...nvm if yu fail this time...that's a new challenge for yu!..yu have to pass it!...so study hard!..we shall study hard together juz like how we used to laugh hard in class everyday! Sometimes i feel guilty when i think back yu noe...coz if we din tok, play n laugh so much...maybe..ur results wld be better..but nvm...its over...^^...jiayu on ur chem!!!!! =) i needa jiayu ttoo!!lolx.. u are havin fever recently rite..yu told me....take gd care of urself okaes! CONQUER THOSE VIRUS!

[cam] i din meet yu for like...2weeks aldy..lolx...we used to meet every week..lolx...hope yu are living well...heex...work is tiring!..i understand!.....but i'm sure yu will learn many things while workin...haha..and thats wat we will never learn in sch. and ya....recently, the weather hasnt been good...it has been raining....take good care of urself!....dun fall sick again!

^`msg`^

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haix. once again, i am in a dilemma.

Everyone seems to be dropping subjects now. I wanna drop subjects too! but i seriously do not know what subjects should i drop would be the best for me. maybe, partly is under peer-pressure but....i really hope that i have more time to rest and play and not be a mugger and 20 years down the road when i recall back..trying to think wat i have been doing in my teenage life...i only can think of studyin...i dun wan that to happen! i wan my life to be as colourful as possible! but...hu doesnt wish that..rite?

I smile more in sch now, i think. It might be...i'm opening up to the world now. YEa...i realised i cant be coop only in my own small little world and only laugh and go crazy when i am in my own fairyland. coz peeps in my fairyland cannot be by my side as always. The world is revolving. That's y sometimes when i am feelin down, i even pondered to approached my sistas or not. Well, i always choose not to. Coz...sometimes, i think they are like my sistas...on the other hand..sometimes it's otherwise. For myself too, sometimes....we meet alot wif some frens, we tot that "wow...my great sista!" after some time, they stop meeting~~~...wher's the frenship? yy the sudden stop of meetin?? that's wher the gap comes in..i guess.

lolx

of course i agree strongly that if a true frenship exists, it doesnt matter whether gd frens meet or not. U juz need a few hrs to vomit out everythin and the gap would be link back again!...hmmmmm..haix.

^haix^

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i'm dead beat today. It's the first official commitee member meeting today[for my ccA]. yea. i am one of them. the文艺组长! And therefore, i am quite stress now. WHY?!

i am told to be fully in charge or rather, be the coordinator of the commitee that is gonna be in charge of publishing a book. PUBLISHING A BOOK?! that's kinda big thing as the book would be for sale. I'm so afraid that i wun do a gd job. Never did that before. Even designing of the cover pg, kinda worried. Coz i am not so artistic. But before those things come into the main thing, i muz find peeps who are interested to join the committee!....if i cant find anyone..i'm dead!...juz like my msn nick..[dead]

i am kinda stress up now. wonder y. perharps there are lotsa to do. pw...tut...revision..that bloody book..
haix.
ther is physics SPA tml. i heard that it's very tough. oh no~~
i can do it!!
i muz have confidence!!!!

^stress^

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hey ya folks!..i have good news for everyone!...lolx...my vision is back~~.i.e..I FOUND MY SPECS!...haha...^lame^ guess where isit?..last nite before i went to bed, mei found it beside her bed...so ya..=X....haha

ya, today, is for the first time that i stayed in the sch wif pam,pris,jiahui,yz to do my work. usually i wld be so reluctant coz i wld wanna run home and slp. And, surprisingly when sch starts this week, i seemed to have some fresh tots. Sch seems to pass so much quicker!
*yawns*

i have to start studyin' real soon. That means i have to go out really less.
the tot of this..*argh, so sad!*
I will miss the peeps whom i always go out wif. I gonna like..see them ...on......also dunnoe when.
=(

^freshiE^

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Weird hse! Up till now..i still cant find my spectacles!. The tot of it makes me feel like laughing! How could my specs go missing?!.....I think it muz be that i ill-treated it. Therefore, it ran away from home. *specs, i miz yu! without yu, my vision sux!*

I gettin' old??
I am forgetin' stuff and losin' things.
Comical.

First, in the morning after physics lecture, i cant find my pencil case after we moved down to our assigned seats !...pam n i rmbed veri clearly that i took it out!.... i even went back to my prev. seats to find, asking the peeps whether they have seen any pencil case. *panic* I even look thru my entire bag!...at last, guess wat? iT dropped to the bottom seats. OMG...so funny!. cannt tahan myself.

Next thing, after PE, i purchased some fruits. after which i placed my wallet on the table. After throwing the secong plastic bag..i saw jerica gg to bath. SO i said.."I FOLLOW YU!!" i ttook my bag n ran off. After that, during econs lecture, i realised....I FORGT MY WALLET!!!! OMG! i panic, once again. Fortunately, ada saw and keep it for me. Thanx ada!..haha....

haix..y am i forgettin' stuff????..jerica said that when gals are havin menses..they would tend to be veri forgetful...is it true??? i dunnoe too~ haha.

^forgetful^specs, where are yu!!!?^

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i'm sitting so near to the com's monitor now. coz i simply cant find my spectacles!...i dunnoe wher i have put them yester nite before i went to bed. By right, it shld be in the kitchen. but it is juz nowhere to be seen.!. i have even searched places like..toilet,under the fridge, in the fridge and also..under the washing machine and table but i juz cant find it! it really doesnt feel good to b unable to see..everythin look so..unclear..aiyox.......

^happie bdae, jas=)^

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felt sad yester nite. somebody indirectly said that i am fat again!.....that's wayne.! he was saying..nxt time when i see him, i muz slim down aldy...arrr!!1...so sad.. TT..TT that i dreamt of yi wee!! she told me to drink 减肥茶..haha...then i was telling her that..no no ..cannt and stuff

^fatty is sad^

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for the first time in my life today, i overshot my stop coz i slept on the bus. lolx. i woke up to find myself at hougang interchange. Got a shocked. initially, i tot that hougang interc first before the bus will reach my place. *blur state* after some tots, i finally noe~...i have overshot!...dotx...blur..rrrrr


and..i finally got to eat the sushi that i longged for like a few months. thou i only ate two. the beancurd wif crab mayo and seasoned scallop...yup...*yums, delicious!* but i think...thats not enough!...lolx..i shall eat a few more tml!..lolx!

hmm..x...for a long time i din go out wif jas!...haha..nowadays, she gets high so easily~~ cannt worx.lolx

^dreams^

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juz saw your blog. Sorry cam. TT. i have deleted that post. I'm truly sorry! i'm feelin so gulity now. haix. sorry sorryyyy!! ='''(

-sorry-

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in a dilemma now. Surprising, my econs gt an A. A subject that i wanted to drop. NOw the thing is..shld i drop or shld i not drop?...Tot of dropping chem or phy too but chem, i have always think that it is interesting since sec sch days. cant bear to drop it manz. As for phy, of course, its for practical purpose=x. Dilemma Dilemma Dillemma!
[pam, pris..cheer uP!. jiayu!!]

btw, my stomach is sick today. haha.s. i gt diarrhea for 3 times today. YUpx. 3 times only.=X. it somehow gd coz somedays i have constipation..haha!...kkaes...stop being ER XIN le..lolx.

^dilemma^

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8th[july]..FRIDAY..

perharps..that will be the last chinese oral for my life. The conversation part was rather tough. But no matter wat ..it's over.
i meet goey and cam at suntec after their movie. we din shop much. that is..i reach ther..and we juz sit at gelare...eat and chat a little..NICE "cliff" of choco mousse cake =). Wayne wanted to meet me that day..but i din want to. In the end..we still went to meet em..and he was like.."y u cum?..go out go out!"..i was like dotx..nvm bout him...heckz rite.lolx. i guess i was real tired tat day. kinda fell aslp on the bus. Cam too. It is aso tat day that i re-encounter lotsa tots. hmmx.


9th[[july]..Saturday..

it's ENERGY's concert. i think for the concert..i am da only one that is feelin slightly high. Shakin and movin all by myself and goey n cam juz kept laughin at me. but..i am used to it aldy. lolx. 自编自导自笑! we have o walk a pretty long way to catch 70. while walking..sis stepped on my sandals and ther it goes...haix....i am so sad. until now..i am still feelin down. haix. dun feel like typin le...~

^pooOr sandalllls^

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Peeps changes. And, most of da times, we are at a loss in dealin wif this kind of changes. We juz think over it, again and again. Not knowing wat to do. Thus, the best way is definitely to be heck care of everythin, every single thing!


Fate often plays a fool on peeps. THats y thou i believe in fate, but i simply, HATE IT!...
Sometimes, we juz fall in luv wif the peeps we shldn...and even strangly, sometimes, peeps that yu used to dislike. It feels bad. At a loss.
Missing someone is worse. YU juz walk around anywher. JUx anywher. However, yu are juz continously keeping a lookout for the one. the one ur heart misses, the one yu wanna see. Yu will juz look here and ther...thinkin..wher the hell is the pax now?!..wat is the pax doing??!... MOst of the times, yu juz keep checkin your phone, hoping to see ther is a new msh, hopefully from the one. Thou, yu jux noe that yu shldnt miss someone ...perharps juz 100% unrelated to yu, ur heart juz yearns for the pax..

YYYYYYYY!!!!??? y mux god let us miss someone esp one that we fall wrongly in luv wif ?!...how can he/ she create such a terrible feelin!?

[[[[[[[ this are juz some tots i have..sudden tots...not missin anyone!=) ]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]


^"moodless"^

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studyin for my chinese A level oral exam now---but i juz cannt concentrate

i'm reallie tired!...i think i gotta slp a while before i cont~ i am collapsin!!..well..i'm kinda happie too!...coz..its finally fri tml!...and that of coz implies that..my dearest weekends are coming!

oh yaP...i juz gt free ticxs to energy's concert!.. .V.I.P.. seats somemore!..feel so honoured!..lolx..but all these thanx to cam!..if not for her...i guess...never in my life will i have da chance to go for energy's concert..sittin at da VIP seats!..thanx cam!..a million thanx!!=)

hmmMM...zz..i think i am not gg for that gatherin tml..so far..i THINK i am nt gg...coz..like..nth much interestin..and if i dun go..i can save money!..lolx

^restless^

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folks..i am here to do another report on my results. i got back my econs mcq questions today. Surprising, i gt 21 out of 25. lOLx.....god is really crackin a joke on me~....!...the subject that i have been thinkin to drop has such results..at least it is so much better than the rest..i think...haix....really dunnoe wat i shld do nw. erm...da R.I. boy topped for econs and chem!....hahaxxx...see da diff betn a R.I. and a bartley de..but still..i luv my sch..definitely...coz it is always so "village-ly"..heartwarming and true!..lolx!



hmmm..yup..i am home early..veri veri early today. i reached home at bout..145pm...a rare scene..100%..lolx.and came online all the way till now...249pm!.... coz i gt no cca today..so 爽!..lolx...so happiexxx. pam and pris said i looked pale today? did i?..lolx...think coz it is in the morn?...i dun think i am fallin sick..coz i have tried ways!...and i juz cant fall sick..lolx..~~~ya~~~wwwwwns....i think i gonna nap!..tml gonna be a long day!..till 535pm..aiyoz...damn sianz de!...

oh ya..before i end..i finally saw lindsey..after one yr plus of hearin her big name..and thats it..off i go le!=)

^bed=magnet-laykoon=magnetic material^

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folks..i have created a new tagboard. My previous one was spoilT!....tag tag..pls tag! =)

~koOnx

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haix...i wanna cry liao. BUt should i? or..have i become immune to all these?.....

i did badly for one of my common tests. One that i have a little of confidence in. that is...CHEMISTRY!..haix. i gt a D-grade again!..can yu imagine tat?!!!!...arrr.....i think i have not studied smart enough.!~ haix...D grade again!!..again!!!...... i juz cant imagine. i tot this time round..it wld be better..at least i studied...real hard!...forgoing allllllllll my play time...sobxxxxxxxxxxx.

i muz jia you le..play less even on usual days!.

i am now so worried for my other subjects!....esp...physics and maths...haix..the one i have confidence in turn out to be like this...i cant imagine wat will those that i do nt have confidence in de will turn out to be..........T.T

^disappointed^

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okaes..and now...a brand new entry! ^_^

i went to bugis and marina square juz nw~!.i realised everywher is having..lotsa sales!...omg!...and..me..i did not bring money!. i am totally totally broke. so i think i am nt gg out tml! it was a great chaos. my atm card was wif dad. so i asked him to transfer money to sis card. and there were kinda lotsa confusion. anyway, my day was kinda spoilt by someone even before i left da hse. i shun say hu..but ya..sua la..HapPie-gO-luckY....back to the me .. 1 yr ago!..everythin aso dun care liao lax~~~~~

let me give a small intro of marina sq~.!..newly renovated.!!.....however, some shops are aso not open yet. me and sis ate at da food court. the food court is very nice..and it is very big!...ther are alot of stalls selling marvelous delicacies!....hmm..yes..they look marvelous! ther are quite a no. of seats tooz.!

wat did we ate?!...hmm...sis ate nasi kuning and miez..ate..tofu goreng..yumz...quite nice indeed..=)))..din wanna eat dinner de...jie la!.. kept complaining that she is hungry!...

as for da shops.....the shops ther..some are quite diff from da shops elsewher. one of which...is like a AFRICA SHOP!...lolx...it sells things that are sooo africa-like..and play africa-like music. lolx...haha..so funnyz. sis was saying..those hu cannt take it then working ther de will die.haha!

me and sis are juz bo liao..coz many of the shops in marina sq are not open yet..we even went to shop GIANT!...lolx....it's realli big by da way.lolx.

oh ya...and..we are...real 自恋 today...took lotsa lotsa pics!!!..lolx!.....anywher we are.

^happiex^

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hmphz...this is a continual blog to this afternoon entry. i felt that i have committed some sin like tat. feel so badz. haix. hopefully he can get out of da pit soon......so sorry.sorry sorry!! though yu wun see.

^sin-ny me^

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haha...i feel like laughing for this whole day after hearing wat somebody has told me..lolx...its real funny...!..i cant say wat it is...btw..it doesnt concerns me..concern my mei mei..lolx...hahahahahahha*gigglessss* oh ya..i am going shopping or rather...windows shopping wif my jiejie ltr...mei dun wan to go..aiya..nan de i gt chance to go out wif em two...together lehs...dunnoe since when i did nt le...mm...she dunn wan...we are planning to go bugis and marina sQ!...marina sq..newly renovated leh!

^laughing^

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hmm..i went to play pool wif my jie juz now...i think i din play wif her for mths le...not say play pool..aso din go out wif her for mths le...lolx....i think both of us think that we are more pro when playing wif each other...weird..rite..i think coz both aso tyco tyco de...lolx...and on our way..gt this Ah ma.. she kept lookin at me..and of coz i look at her once in a while too..thinking why she kept staring...so i was trying to tell sis by typing on da msg...then she scolded us..say we look n look at her!...she only changing her clothes nia..after that she spoke in hokkien.."last time we live in 6,7 rm flats aso dun have a phone...now....peeps living in 2,3 rm flats all gt phone.."..i was liek dots....then say wan to ask CID to catch peeps wif phone..and somemore before we alight she still say she aso gt phone then wanna take out show us..i am so angry la.!...feel like scolding her kp!>.....sis aso dulan but we din do anythin to her coz she is old...if not...arr!

^spoil my day!^

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okaes..i din blog like for..2 days?..that is a rare thing. LOl.

ok..lets try to recall....1....2.........3...GO!!

lolx...thurs was a real happie day for me! all my common resrs finally finally has ended!...i am so happie..although i think i am gonna fail phy this time round..its juz so hard..chan le..mati le la..and chi..for the first time thruout my life i have soooo little confidence!..

i finnlay went to kbox on 30th jun!....wif,..wayne..sh..ph...and my mei!..haha...surprised that she actually dare to tag along..of coz la..i asked her along de..lolx..it was a veri nice nite...wif all of us singing from 8 to 1++..so shuang..and they all can hear my voice breAKING...lol...x...sing too much le ma..i realli enjoyed myself!..that nite was so cold..in the room..everyone...i was crazy too....i was jumping around..coz it is toooo cold..i wanted to keep myself waRm..lolx...well..the bill kills me too..i brough 50 bucks wif me and i am left wif only 7 bucks...arrr...and that wayne..say want to treat one drink aso never...-_-.. after which..the cab fare...so ex again....12 ++..aiyo...i reached home at 1 plus...mei was so superb tired and me coz still abit hyper..chated wif junyi ill 3+ am.for the first time!..lolx...[cheer UP,junyi!]

yester..wher did i go??...hmm..yup..i woke up real late. thats one thing that i remembered!....after which i went to bank to make my account bk..so mum can finally stop nagging le!....llolx..i am so bad....ya..then after that i went to town again..ya....town again.!...wif wayne and my mei again!..after which cam joined us. cam looked different today!..she seems happier u noe..lolx...thats gd..continue in that way!...lolxxx..and ur hair hor...like 'taller' le..lolx..oh ya...heng yester we gt a BOSS and that is...mr wayne!...lolx...ya...peep rich..ya..lolx...he taught my sis play pool aso...aiya...mr pro ma..lolx...

my sis and him are quite shou..they talked about his family stuff?...i heard fr my sis de..ya..hahx.x..i think mei is really friendly?..or..talkative..lolx...and wayne..actually wannted to buy present for his mum only when all the shops are like..cLOSED!...aiyo..want to buy present aso dun wanna buy earlier..

last thing...MS DAi..pls take care la..!......i think there is sth wrong wif yu aso...so u had better take gd care of YOURSELF!

^long-winded^

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