Complexity in Simplicity

Thursday, May 15, 2008

Effort Marks the Month

- Not by extravagance but by effort on the actual day.

I was sprinkled with a very pleasant surprise last night. Even I myself can't really believe it and I estimated that i was stunned for almost half a minute.

It is the first time.

The first time, the first time...

I still have the scene so clearly playing in my mind. .. ....

Just after dance lesson, i saw a message that was very different from what I would have expected or usually received. It was a message with the tag 'urgent' to it. Asking me to call him back immediately after my dance as he has something important to ask me. I didnt know what could be soo urgent that would require immediate attention. And a weird thing was...the question asked later on could actually be asked over messages. Well, then i thought to myself 'perharps, he's at that place..'

Then my last question was "Where are you"...somehow i sensed a hesitating reply .."outside". And as usual, i dont probe more into it if i sensed that someone else is not willling to reveal.

Nevertheless, somewhat instinct strucked me.from the moment i stepped out of the dance studio. It feels as if someone is out there waiting for me...

But voices running in my mind said that.."no, it cant't be. He's just not that-kind-of-guy". I stepped into the lift and inside the lift, i was still expecting something. I visioned someone standing right in front of the entrance before tbe lift smiling to me. But again, before the lift opens, voices reminded myself "expectations breed disappointment(s), so it's better not to expect anything". I know clearly that not expecting brings about appreciation and enchantment.

Indeed, there was nobody outside the entrance. But the instinct or the telepathic waves seem to be too strong to totally shelf it aside.

I walked out of the door..stood there for a while and turned my head left (instead of walking towards the right which was supposed to be the way back home)....and guess what... my instinct was right afterall! hahas..i stared at him for a while...then suddenly turned my head to the right to see if my dance friends were ahead.. hahas.

Despite the instinct..it was really a great surprise. Pretty well-planned that i didnt sensed at all fr the start..(i think afternoon?) . Because you dont have it often, it's so enchanted.

How i wish i have a internal recording system that ensures that this whole scene never fades at all...to keep it as it is.

'Effort'

yes..for the past one month, if not for what he said yesterday..i probably haven't realised that indeed effort didnt just mark for just that one day. It marked this whole month. The month when he has to consciously take the effort to make sure things work.. and i have to take the effort to fight on, to tell myself i can do it..to not give up on impulse or irrationally.

Effort..a simple word yet i think it's so appropriate..coz that's what makes this month much much different from the previous others..

how sweet.. :D

12:34 PM

Labels: Anniversary, happy, Indelible memories, my love :), Sweet

doodled at Thursday, May 15, 2008 by koon | Doodlelink |

9 Comments:

he's sweet. no wonder there's this phrase, action speaks longer den words. his action is realli sweet!
By XiaNG LiNg, at 3:32 PM

hahas..yea. his actions are usually sweet, at least to me. then again, it's not only actions. I think it's both. BUT then again, Maybe it's just me. ahahs.

gal, keep smiling okae, as genuinely as possible :)
By koon, at 5:38 PM

OH man! Jeremy's the ideal boyf which any girls out there wants! HAHA! TREASURE him, babe you're really lucky to have him! :D
By Anonymous, at 10:37 PM

Well, despite all the commotion, no, I personally don't think I'm sweet, I would prefer the words, "thoughtful," "unpredictable" or "cool", you can't go wrong with cool, haha.

Ideal? Yes, indeed, I think so too. And yes, I would treasure myself too if I had me... ok nevermind. Anyway, nah, she's not lucky, she's just *ahem* more than ample, haha.

But anyway, the bottomline is.. see darling, people are telling you to treasure me, make sure you do just that, haha.

Happy 8th Month, again.
By Jeremy Kang, at 1:51 AM

dun worry. i do smile often! =) really hope tat u will come on sunday! come okay?
By XiaNG LiNg, at 10:35 AM

Re: Wynkisses

hahas....yea many gals would want such a guy as a bf..provided that they are able to see beyond the his shallow and hmphs scary side..yupps. Treasuring..:D

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Re: Cheeky

what commotion? lolx. ther's no commotion my dear..It's just too bad that it's sweet to me, afterall im the receiver of actions..thoughtful doesnt seems to be the image that you would want. Unpredictable..yes..always as random as ever and cool..perharps. As usual, dont wanna 'praise' too much despite it being a fact. hmphs.

more than ample? I seriously think that u urself are quite lucky too. Where else can u find such an understanding gf (that easily)?

And...what all of u are saying made it sound like im not treasuring, cherishing what i have. bad bad.

happy 8 mths :D

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Re: xl

im still thinking bout it. You know it's damn weird when the past ex-s (me and yx) were thinking/talking bout our views on the '2 of u'..like damn wrong. weird. lolx. But then being able to do so, i know what it means to fully get over things..
By koon, at 11:34 AM

hmm. yup. he told me u and him chatted abt tat topic. it's good 2 fully get over things. dun disappoint me on sunday! =)
By XiaNG LiNg, at 8:20 PM

hahas.ok
By koon, at 4:12 PM

Re: Cheeky

maybe it is ..'so much for treasuring'

i havent been.
By koon, at 4:13 PM