She could say more than I ever could, know ways to put things in light.
While what I've said were all ordinary and plain. I call it tasteless even to the tongue buds. Whose words make a significant impact complemented with the person's importance and status to one...the smallness made me felt like doing nothing. Nothing at all. To turn myself away so far. Run away. It could be only myself, only myself that took note of such stuff. But things dont go that way..when you dont realise, it doesnt mean that it didnt exist or haven't exist.

I've lost so much in time and perhaps not just time im losing out. Time for things around me, between each shuffling shoulders..it makes a difference. And if it has to be compensated by something else...I say and I think it's background. Background of one. And i cant even match up to that. Each time I think of the mocking sentences, it puts me in dull light. Mocking sentences do not carry the same weight when different people said it. And well, it could be imagination or wild thoughts you call it. But it's not always like this for Some things you know for sure.

I don't know if i should be happier or sadder..it's always a complex feeling. But thank god optimism has taught me to drain the unhappy, remember the happiness and think in the most positive way..




Strange. Our lifes coincide with the seasons of today.

Labels: Emo.., inner voices

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