i went to jack's place yester! ofr the first time of my life. with darlin.
the potato was really nice? YES! it is

haha..with that bacon on it and the sour cream.LLOlx. arigato!s

but i would get fatter yea...if u cont to feed me.haha.LLOLx.

a picture paints a thousand words...so....

and see...with that candle...it really feels like a candlelight dinner. i feel kinda awkward at first..nt saying that im a unromantic person. but yes...too romantic than usual that i dunnoe how to respond. haha.

thats y.

-6days to 5th may!-

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just came to blog bout sth im really happy about.

my sista that had never changed since sec one.

goey aeng!

im so glad that u would turn to me when u are feelin down and i would lend a listening ear still and offer any advice that i could.

im really elated to hear from you. to know that im still da one that u would pour ur troubles to.=D Seriously. Even im busy studying, i'll still spare a little time for u if any real trouble crops out.!

dun worry be happie okae...my dear goey aeng!.
the bitches that bitch will get their retribution one of these days! hope that i din sound too evil?!

but seriously, dun give a damn to those bitches that doesnt worth ur time. KooOn loVES u!!

smile da jie! =D

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to be in a state of depression, how does it feels like?
im wondering.
suddenly.

just for a point of reflection, i feel that sometimes i have a split personality=x.haha

my views towards people around me chang so quickly..
in such a short time.
i wonder why.
a moment of anger, piss. and the next moment, it changes.

i dunnoe.

i get angry with everyone so easily. or rather...get irritated by em.

its something in my life that i need to learn to take in my stride.
that is FaILure.
in just these 2 weeks i felt like a loser. a DAmn loser. i dunnoe the last time that i felt is was during when but.....the only describable feeling is that it feels as if everyone has offended u.

this is gonna ruin my friendships if it carries on.=(

the feeling of being demoralised. With no confidence to do anything, not even to mention talking. its feels as though everything are RUBBISH! and somebody would juz criticize you hard again.everything feels wrong.

and only the presence of the perfect one can soothe ur mind.

wats gg on??!

sigh~

anyway.....juz got the confirmation that we will be going down to lee-wei-song music sch for extra training on SUn.
i hope that there would be improvements!

my audiences...i'll try my best. BUt dun carry too high hopes ar...coz im terribly pressured too!........=)

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IN a bloated state NOW~!

ate choco strawberry peach agar agar!.....made by..darlin!

haha.another time that we cooked together.

recently..i think i am begining to turn some peeps into competitors which i personally think its not gd but my mind kept treating them in that manner and i get quite pissed off with them very very easily. IN hard times it really makes one puzzle whether to share or not. Its not that i dun wan i guess but......the results of sharing...IM so bu shuang!

and yea.! jas! thanx for coming..^^ i will buy the tix for u and yuting if u 2 are really confirm le. =)

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AJC faMIly 2006 today! considered really a success! i dunnoe about the rest but definitely at least for my class! haha...though i do not noe how much is the profits but i guess its at least 50 bucks. haha....coz i left early.

anyway..this year we are forced to buy that 6 bucks of tix. i din buy lotsa things coz i was waitin for somebody...who is suppose to play with me..but anyway....its okae.i understand...^^

HmmmM...yea...all i noe was...all of us kept bingeing on the POPCORns.LOLx.

my day juz ended. juz came back from town. i Watch the sentinel wif darlin. yea...in deed tired.

yester..gelare...wwaffle wif ICE CREAMMMMm..thanx dear! =)......lOVES it.


nowadays i realise how some ppl can be so irritating..~

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YESH!

finally maths and physics cT is over! after like weeks of mugging for both of the test!..*did i really mug?* HMMmmx...haha! anyway..i can finally be a bit of a quiescent in my studies and be 'active' in my SLeepINg! thats my choice..yea. sounds like a substandard choice! How can i do this?! bUT i need a break. haha

i really admire Ms Ng's nonpareil atitude towards her way of life especially in her university life. Someone with so many acheivements. A great role model for me. Sleeping Juz 2 hrs a day and she look perfectly energise and cool! and look so young! I believe in wat she have say the day before. In life, its a matter a choice. U choose wat u wan to be. A slacker? A wanderer with no proper stuff to do? u choose it!



Its a matter of choice.~

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for the first time in my life...i tried TENNIS today!...haha....its really quite fun..kinda regretted backing out from joining tennis at the begining of last year. BUt i also understand why they say that tennis can build brawny arms!...coz u really need lotsa strength to aim and spin the ball towards ur opponent. or maybe, its juz for my case. But its simply not a simple game.

anyway..sold my first tickets today!...PAM!...my first customer..haha..tHANx.though i would like sb else to be so.but nvm.HAHA!

and yup..gotto sing for the teacher tml. lets hope that qi sheng will not come. Im so scared of HIM...*shivers* seriously hope that my coordination wwif jerica would be gd!
=D gambattes!

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little blog here. im getting restless. eyelids are as heavy as stones. =(

anyway...went over to PS today to have ajisen ramen! all thanx to jerica's treat..she is really generous. A meal which she could have saved for the rest of her week in school. Thanx so much. One of the most generous fren i have..or the most generous one.

ANyway..i had volcano ramen yet i still dun think that it is hot enough. my tastebud...there is muz be sth wrong wif it. LOLx. nevertheless, its nice...YUMS! =P.





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I got my new phone!
as predicted..i am so excited over it.
For wat?
I dunnoe.
the camera feature=x..i sound so stoopid..*okokae..stop it!*

anyway...thats not the point. THIs coming week gonna be a hectic week....my instinct hints me. Common test would be the big thing this week .Bloc coMMon test. Phy CT the first thing in the morning tml.The tot of it...makes me wanna puke.

i haven been slping enough. The panda's spirit is haunting me..=( i dun wan to become a family of them! T.T

To ev eryone. : never say things too early! As in time to come..wat u have SAID may not be wat YOu SAY ~

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caught a movie yester.

FIREWALL!

it is really nice! at first i was like...i dun even noe wat show i would be watching..its juz..okae...follow the crowd...but it turns out to be a very nice show! juz a brief of the show.

a bank's VIP security family is being kidnapped by a grp of hackers....they wanted to rob the bank..etc etc...and in the show its really exciting..nervous for them..yea..haha..

the take away from the movie..is how a man love his family so much..its quite touching.
BUsinessman do care bout their family lotsa! =D


and yea!
im finally changin phone...dad and mum has gone to help me sign ......hees........

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first of all...

HAppi birthday! darlIN!
hAppi 18th birthday!=D

i manage to give him a mild surprise at 12am...with a extremely chocolatey cake..a choco croissant..big seal n puzzle letter! im glad that he is happie! =D

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im gonna bath after this blog...it has been a long long day today.
as usual..every wed onwards.

anyway...this week seems to be a more happening week relative to so many others.

yester....a few of us went to swiss hotel..raffles conventional centre to attend the singapore 28th lecture...but as those hu went would noe....we were disappointed at the duration of th lecture. A lecture that supposedly to last for an hr was ended off "punctually" but started off late.
and its in arabic that we cant understand...well..i dont blame them for this since they have a translator...=x.

after that lecture...i went to sakae...with darlIN!. thanx for ur treat! yuMMies. though i din eat alot.LOlx. anyway...next time if u guys buy bread or wat..rmb to keep it in ur bag or else u will lose it...like he did!~...LOLX

leaving yester brings a brand new day today. I finally made my decision. Maybe..its jerica who made it for me.

But coz i was feelin all sorts of feelin - nervous..worried..stage fright. anyway..
finally....i will be singing with jerica .duet on our cca's public performance which consists of dramas and singings...dramas are mainly of love stories..i THINK...lolx...

interested folks can get tickets viA me at $5..5th MAy 06 (fri) ...its open to public..anyone can juz come!...i need support! =X...uh ..i dunnoe too..i need to pract lotsa.....wish me luck! =D

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i got a new haircut! =D....back to a hairstyle that has no parting!...LOLX.

and yea...gotto thanx folks for ur concern...i appreciated them...=O...but im alright aldy...rmb..IM laYKOON!...llolx....its alright as i will always hurmour myself...lame and cheer myself up..nothing gonna happen..


the excitement that some guys give is really irritating as it lingers for too long a time. Im juz hope that this kind of feelin..will leave them soon.
No doubt actions and words are unfetter...but...HMMmmm..im gettin irritated..=x. anyway..... anyway..anyway.......

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an unhappy week.

may it juz pass....


i get so hungry so easily recently..damn it!~

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sis came back from tw yester!!!..wow im so envious of her....i believe this trip would be a indelible memory for her!..LOLx..think she really enjoyed herself every much..i gt lotsa souvenirs from her too!..a cap..a key chain..a boxer...haha!..diaos~~....hmmmmm.....and a earring..arigato gozaimazu!...lOlx.......

i wanna go tw too...
heard from her...mo tian lun is really great!..and the food there...oh ya..she bought so many clothe for herself...i wld do the same thing..=x

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i went bugis today!...shoppiNG Spree? not really.haha...

i din buy alot of things but i spent alot....80+....bought my own FAnCL mild cleansing oil and darlin's birthday pressie.

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im hiding in sis rm now.
juz reach home from gym.
maybe its fated that dad happen to be vaccuming the floor..so i sneaked in with no one knowing..and hid in my sis's rm..squating down.

now...he had kept the vaccum cleaner..aND...nobody noes im at hm!.

avoidance is never the answer, should never be the answer but its the only thing i can bring myself to do now. im so sad nowadays. cried suddenly in front of darlin the day b4. he gt a shock ..i noe.

but..i..
dont know how to tell anyone my feelings.
my feelingss.
i've gone puzzled bout em.


=)? =(?

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din stay home today too. juz dun wanna see 'em.
din respond to them at all for 2 days le.

is this attitude? i hope not. coz i really dun even wanna look at 'em.

anyway...had napfa today..2.4km. run. my timing..best timing this yr.....YESH!...14min and 40sec....yayys!!!!..hOOO! great! =D

oh ya...and one little thing to say b4 i go.

we shld nt get addicted to the fun in life and fall inside forever......we shld noe when to stop..coz like...me..jeri and pam. after the camp...we are like trap inside........the fun. its esp obvious in sch. lOLX. somehow..yyea....shall nt get addicted yea?

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i dun feel like staying at home! =(.
everythin is nt gd=(
dad went wrong yester nite=(
he wanted to commit suicide=(

i juz wanna get out of da hse=(
out
out
out=(


eating medicine with beer and liqour?....wanna drink detergent? then the whole family shall die tml yea?!
if u do that, we will do the same thing..mum n me.....arggh..
='(

im so scared.
so scared

thanx jerica for ur advice. glad that i have a fren with me.
thanx to HIM too...there with me yester...to comfort me. THanx.!

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yesterday dinner that u prepared for me...pasta and prawn with toast..i would love 'em. i recognise the efforts and love put in.

THanK yoU! i Appreciated iT! very very very much!. and i din mean it to be wat u said..The last. Im sorry but..im really sorry.

Choice followed the head this time round.
tHe mind is never rational.
It hurts but no matter how pain it is. i have made my choice.
LOve urself. Strive oN.

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