HAND -painted!..believe it?...thanxxxxxxx darlin=). lurves it lotsssaaa!

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my IT show..sitex is finally over. this time round i am finally doing a more decent brand...a brand wher easy money really comes...=)...

CANOn...for harvey norman.

but i seriously have lotsa complains..!!! juz let me vomit them out for a while and i would be aright.....thats simply da result of nt bloggin for a long time!

i hate harvey norman staff!!!

DISCRIMINATION!!...thats y i dun like 'em!
where's the logic whereby a sales person cannt serve two customers at a same time!!!! thats f***ing logic!!!..im damn pissed off at that moment when that bloody uncle said that to me and tried to snatch my customer from me!

their own staff can get the stock from outside while we, hired promoters, cant!!! coz they thinks that we will steal..wat da hell! so wat about those directly hired by canon!????...dun they steal too???....aint they outsiders too!???...can ask em to go n die!

but i juz feel, im really more into camera line or electronics..coz i noe da tricks better...llolx....compared to jewellries n stuff......*failure* =((

i dunoe...i seems like im really tired. very tired aldy. wayne once read my palm for me. ther's one specific line that indicates how much stress i wld have in my life. the result was i wld be a stressful person throughout my life.

its quite true to a certain extent after some tot. coz i always always create so much stuff for myself to do. each time when i tot, "oh..after this thing, i can rest thoroughly!" but each time its juz not true coz da fact is i always wld take up sth else to do to make myself so tired. im really tired now. physically, mentally. sometimes..i feel, it may be emotionally too. thats y i grow to be so ignorant of some many things. juz dun care bout everything then wun be tired ba.? i guess.

i even forgt to attend a meetin in my sch, sth that i am in charge in. totally forgt bout it...diaos.....wonder wats up in me..

anyway, suppose to meet xiang ling. waitin for her...waitin waitin......

^tired w stress^

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=( din go to da zoo today coz it was RAINING..haha.......diaos....

ended up going to parkway, play pool and eat..haha..gelare again..yums yums..especially SWEet..=P
haha...ate pretzel. yums yums too.....haha

its all about food n pool today..watched creeps at wayne's hse today too...initially tot tat will meet his mum or sth but...its quite lucky or can i say that no fate wif his mummie..haha....

btw..wayne is abit crazi today, i thin k...haha!...tried on my skirt n top..LOL....funny!..llolx.

craving for BK's breakfast..=)
^zoo-ie gone^

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- meet jas today..(nicer hair..=P)
- wanna see cam hair! green..hmmm..
- had great fun wif jas today..although its jux chit chatting...gd that u are laughing more..=D
- downloaded ringtones tgt..haha..jas...mine is always louder than urs..!..=P
- damn cold today.
- jas..we forgt to do sth..!..practise for beatboxing competition..=x

-after that went chomp chomp.
- wayne wanted to eat hokkien mee..
- sadly, it's closed.
- food that he ate cant satisfy him...=P
- haha.
- saw junyi wif sean n ferlica wif sercheong.
- tiny world..
- llolx.

anyway..after workin for so long..i think i lurves gift wrapping nw..=P...its so fun! u can do anyything u wan to the presents..=PPP....so folks.... if u have presents to wrap..can ask me..hahas!!!.....=P. anyway...gg to zooo...tml..haha......sounds funny but i haven been to da zoo for a long long time..we'll see wat happen tml..hhaa...tatas

^happie^

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went back to sch today and darybreak centre...a child care centre..sorta voluntary work..=)

the kids were adorable..=)

we were "playing" wif flour..llolx...it was so fun..heex...llolx....i gt myself dirty too..=P
i rmb some kids especially well.

james..the extremely quiet one.
ze fang....a bit attitude de..
another gal..i rmb her but nt her name..so sad...


it will be continue..""

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haha..okaes..after this post..im gonna go bath and then go work le..*hungry

few days ago..10th noV

im released early from work.=). went to watch the exorcism of emily rose wif wayne. before that, we walked around and we met jas n cam!...so coincidental! =P
we then shopped tgt..cam's hair is nice..unfortunately, i cant dye my hair..=(
the show was quite scary at some parts....only..haha....gt shocked at certain parts..
and wayne was sweet that day..he bought lunch for me to my workplace..^the food at tanglin suckx!^

next..

i am the cashier for kidz story at tanglin now..i realised...being a cashier is so stressseD!
yester is the day that i did the closing myselF!!..i kept forgetting this and that.......receipt forgt to put in...cheque nv put in.....DIAOS...i hate being a cashier now!!=(((

anyway..my first day of work at ISetan scotts yester too...would be workin there ltr too...
the jewellries..the more i see..the nicer they are....artistic piece of jewellries!

my unlucky day yester...the moment i step out my hse...my sole came off...and so many unlucky things happened when i am da cashier..at nite..my wallet fell onto some mud water..=(((((((((((((((((((( no matter wat, they are all over....today is a new day...hopefully i wld have some sales..!

^hungry^

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OP

i was so nervous..at da presentation..whoosh..keep saying the wrong thing!...my group except serkun din "died" at the q&A session....=(....wonder wat stoopid qns they asked...haha..anyway..PW is finally over after one year oh..or a few months of hardwork.....
a great great thanx to da grp leader..haha
had great time wif pam in all sessions too...=)))..
eeteng..thou we always argue over certain things but he is still a great team mate..=))
clarence.so great that he opened himself to us..=)))...."our sistas!"

went bishan after that...makan and...take neoprints..smiles...cheex.


TOwn
oh..btw..i went shopping today alone fr PS to shaw...and..i spent 100++..HEARTACHE!!
everything i see is so nice..i can go and die aldy..where to find so much money!!
LLOlx...
finally bought my mickey denim jacket..so happi...69 bucks..
heex..
i saw a bracelet that i love...$18.90..a copper brown stars wif black "beads?"
..dunnoe..haha
and also a necklace..79 bucks..
alamak...frownnnns
=((

^smiles^

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its gonna be op tml!

AJ 116..gambattes orh!!

hopefully everything would turn out well..=)

im gonna practise at least 2 more times ltr.

one verbal and one wif slides...=x.

serkun
eeteng
pamela
clarence
laykoon
''J.I.A..Y.O.U"

=)) god bless!

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ecp....

loves da sand.

loves da waves.

da niteview

so many starrrrs!!

with da one u love.

everythin is so lovely~~

the warmth in da coldness, tied wif a knot.

but the mosquitoes and ants were annoying!!

i am still itching all over now...*yangyang*

^east coast nitess^

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ohs..news to tell u guys.

erm.

we've patched.

the story gonna continues.

=).

yupps.

^continue^

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im in a dilemma now.

a dilemma that i created myself.

to cont wif da fairytale or really close up da bk and stop reading?

yester nite ..i didnt slept well.

sub-consciously..i was hoping.....a msg a msg from him will do........

juz one.

and he did.

i was really happy.

but i felt so hopeless n useless.

now....none of u guys are online.

i wanted anyone of u to tell me....

"laykoon, be determineD! live on wif ur decision!"

i wanted thatt...

im relenting...

i finally cried out.

perharps the bottle is full.

cant bottle anymore of my tears

missing ya~

^hopeless^

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this whole day, me, RQ n jeslin..all slacking at work.
so little customers and that supervisor sherry is nt around
that is da time that we are most shuang.
yays..but today whole day i was like stoning quite a no. of times. llolx.


he came my place today, to my surprise.
my sis was shocked.
he stood by da door so suddenly.
i was shocked too.
he held me, asked me questions.
"do i still feel for him?"
"will i nt be happy if things cont?"
"have i forgotten things we did together?"
etc.

all my answers were negative.
i almost answered a yes.
i wanted to.
but i told myself..NO..juz NO!
i dunnoe y.
but
juz feel that sth is missing.
ther's a gap.
i dunnoe wat is it.
the missing piece in my fairytale.
the feelin i hope to have in my fairytale is juz not right.
he hugged me.again, i almost gave up my no and simply answered a yes.
but all i did was to push him away.
i'm getting colder...colderrr...non-human?

finally he msged to say that he decided to give up.
the coldness in me broke.
tears almost flowed.
but i bottled them up.
i cant bear to hear that.
cant bear to..
cant bear to..
but i chose nt to reveal how much i cant bear too.
let time fade off everythin
it wld be better for him.
i juz want him to haTE me..but he doesnt..
pls hate me!!

^hate me^

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his perserverence almost pulled me back

i told myself, i cant.

no matter how much i wish.

i chose the path, i made my choice, i dun have da right to cry, let along sigh.

those days were gone.

everythin is gone simple of one sentence that i said.

tears..i will hold them back. i will not let them flow.

maybe i shld start on my techno craze again..

[[[ the shadow is still there. but i can remove it by switchin off da lights. but the switch is so high. i need time to climb up and off it.]]]

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kbox outin..failed..

sat at kovan.went crazy...me n jas..were ther..beatboxing..<-spellin corect?

that nite..our story ended.

^end^

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