22 April 08

I know what it means when someone can do better than Dance in Cheering me up, in quelling negativities. Dance usually is a very helpful activity in disconnecting me from the outside world and what happens in my mind is only whats in the studio.

But this time, during Dance practice, my mind was disconnected from dance. And consciously upsetting myself with senseless and unworthy issues.

At the end of dance, I stood at the same street.. Walking back and forth in my shades despite the darkness.. I would like to avoid stares by people when I get puffy and watery in the eyes. Was ups and downs in the mind...well but not AS bad as before dance. Dance did help a lil, afterall. But i didnt know what to do...can I act like im fine? I tried but apparently someone who somewhat understands me saw me through.

"Can I ask why?"
I seriously got stuck at that question. It may sound easy to answer..but I just cant utter anything..because I know if i steered emotions away and view things from an objective angle, technically nothing should be bothering me..

And there we were..standing at the end of the train's platform, i finally could voice out what I had in mind slowly..And im glad that he's patient enough to wait for me to talk things out between the tears. This could be the nth time that he's telling me these and I understood them, still try to be as understanding as I can...But I hope this time they will really penetrate me...coz i really know and trust what he's saying..

At the end of the day, he still never fails to make me laugh and be genuinely happy. ..

As he insists, we went for a light dinner...Somehow i think its to really ensure that im back to normal......

We passed by New York New York and dropped the plans of TCC..Time at NYNY was great, I felt like a normal person again..

Caesar Salad.

Was amazed when he told me that he feels like eating Salad...for the first time. A non-veggie lover tells me he feels like eating that..hahas. :)

I really want myself to remember this night. Really Really. Just like how the pinky promises sealed w lovely kisses continue to push me on. This night, it should be more..if not a reinforcement to whatever we had. Yes, u're right...i gotto believe that U know ur choices..and u're a man who only pursue what u're happy with..

I cant let anything else just take away what we had so easily. And I should be stronger than that.

At the end of the day, I returned home feeling really happy..like I've just fell in love again.

i can be a baby but i cant be a kid.. :p

Labels: Dine, Sweet, Uni-

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