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Life gets so sweet when a friend, a very selfless, always bring good things for us.

This dance friend of mine, Catherine, always brings us good treats.

And these chocolates were bought to support her friend...and they were pretty good :D

Of the six she gave me out of the many other flavours out there, 'The Happy Hazelnut" is definitely lovely..with a semi-hard or semi-melted outer layer, a creamy inside filled with rich Hazelnut..

And her so called 'nipple-like' chocolates (hahas)..definitely gave me a surprise. It looked plain simple on the outside yet the mix of taste was a tinge of mint, orange? And? hees, try it and u'll know. And that is called CHEEKY CHOCOLATE. hehs. It's full of surprise, just like cheeky.

"Lust for Milk" was less of a surprise but still a rich milky choc~

"Dark and Sexy"..Oh yea..it was really a dark ball of chocolate sprinkled with chocolate powder. Not exactly as sexy though..hahas. wished for it to be alil more bitter and distinct..

Passionate Raspberry was really sweet, together with it's white-outer milk choc? But feels kinda juicy and novel.

"Bored Lemon" didnt really come in the way I thought it will; No flowing lemon juice..hahas. Doesnt really wake you up as it promised. A very subtle lemony taste.

One interesting thing is the meaning the chef/bosses give to each of the chocolate - Emotions, Type, Dosage...

Try it out when you have the chance yupps!

12:50 AM

I know it shouldnt be interfered by me in any way. That's why I didnt say anything to her. I only prompted questions to seek for a slight knowledge of what's on her mind. All I have seen was the forgotten yesterday and the embraced today. For the better or for the worst. We always say 'Move On'..but it seems like when you move on too quickly, something is wrong too.

Where's the remorse, the guilt?

Where's the sadness?

Hidden emotions..could it be? So many of us went ahead or forced ourselves to undergo the 'Numbing Therapy'. Is numbing not feeling or numbing as a mode of hiding yourself from vulnerabilities?

These days I wonder if the physical trade-in is less of a burden than emotional investments? The mindless physical loss, momentary indulgence contrary to the warmth and love, strain and tear of the mind. What an expensive empty indulgence for the former.. Note that It's so much easier to just pack and leave if it's the former.

I visualised the state of mind as a place of sand, just like a beach. With each emotional investment a pair of foot-prints on the piece of sand or maybe 2 pairs. One of yours and one of his. Yet those of physical 'trade-in' is defined as leaving no traces on the sand or have been tucked under some logs, hidden somewhere.

Adding the sea-water, as 'time'...they washed off the least penetrating emotions and leave those deeply etched emotions intact or requiring multiple washes to still leave behind a print that doesnt hurt like it used to be; just a nice imprint. The beauty of one's life is when you see many foot-prints on the sand and not when you see tract wheels' prints running across the sand. You cant even figure out whose footprints are those...too brief, too quick. Worst of all, it has become so quick that it leaves behind a piece of flat sand-land. Just imagine a vehicle moving at high speed across the sand and you will realise how different it is from the distinct foot-prints.

I would want a foot-print, wanna keep a foot-print.

It's too much to see 2 persons being once-so-close becoming strangers-like and forgotten overnight. Attention should be given to 'once-so-close'; mental intimacy and/or physical intimacy.

2:27 PM

First desserts at ben & jerry since Cheeky's return!

27 Sep 08 -Ben & Jerry at Cathay

And the night's talk bout RESPONSIBLE men...

It's always good to have something you used to have and love so much. The usual late nights out, one activity after another. To be able to do things together without too much of a hesitation, all in the name of enjoyment and fulfilment. Just hafa admit that recurring mental burden is bad. Too bad I was alil tired after movie and became less conversational..

We talked bout how likely one in love can easily Cognitive Dissonance. Not that I agree with him that I'm committing such a dissonace too. Consiciously, I know i'm not.

In fact I think that Self-fulfilling Prophecies is more likely..If you look at the most basic way of how this mechanism works..it seems like everyone suffers from it.

Expectations towards somebody -> you therefore behave in a certain way somewhat congruent to your expectations -> person in a specific way coz of way of treatment -> Confirm your expectations.

Sometimes I wonder how detectable is this? OR can you actually detect it? It's so easy and normal that you treat ur loved ones better...and reciprocation, supposedly traits of a good character. Reciprocity in kindness at least. If it exists, in this case, I think self-fufilling prophecies are happening in a 2-way direction.

OH. and who's trying too hard? The fact that one probably need to sustain their self-esteem through a series of reminders and goals. And I believe self-esteem is etched into one in the most sub-consicious manner. It's only when u think that you are more superior than others out there then will you feel good about yourself. Frankly speaking, I feel that self-esteem should be a relative cognitive element than an absolute one. Or for the least, you have to nativfy it.

3:19 AM