Each answer a bite in the heart.
And, each bite in the heart is a crave for an answer.




Perharps i shouldnt

Labels: Emo.., inner voices, Sour

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PIECES OF PUZZLE


Ever wished that you were part of the story in his/her past. Wished that you were there to witness the whole process, the emotions involved, to see for yourself how things were like back then. Then only you can understand the whole story thoroughly and hopefully be a better company of ur loved ones.

No matter how many times you have heard the story, you never felt it's complete. You know, there's lotsa loopholes here and there. Of course one can argue..you don't have to know everything but it's just the curiosity mind at work.

Small little puzzles constitute to the whole of one's life, thats the whole picture, the completed puzzle. And in each puzzle, different elaborate images are printed on it. And in fact, each of this puzzle is unique. Regardless is the little stars, with dazzles or without, different shading of the sky, different parts of the main character in the puzzle and so on. It's these small little pieces, all different come together to form one big picture.

I can never be in every piece of your puzzle, anyone else's puzzle. Yet I do still hope that ther's traces of that star in every puzzle. Its stupid, i know! *hahas.

As I was saying, simply listening to the story(ies) make one feel that its never complete. You can listen to it once, twice,ten times yet it wun flow as nicely. Esp so when someone recounts his past to u. They minus away the forgotten, the unnecessary, the avoided, the maybe not...whats left is bits of story with gapS. And when these are revealed to you in other ways, coupled with visual aids, sweet language (be it body,sign or words), they hit you like its the present not the past. of coz, only for that like split second moment or...slightly longer.




would you wanna know or would you rather be ignorant bout it?

Labels: Emo.., inner voices, Sour

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2007 - A YEAR OF TRANSITIONS





If you want me to summarise my 2007, I would say its overwhelmed w transitions. The second half of the year especially. So many things have happened. From academic, personal, family and relationships. All of them still living vividly in my mind.

No long reflections.

But I just want myself to remember the kind of struggles I had at some period of the year. The new perspectives I've gained. The overwhelming pain that I could still sorta feel when topics related is brought up.

A year that I have to grow up in a way different from others.
A year that I have to learn to manage my emotions.
A year that I cant let myself go weak in the mind and to constantly fight unhappiness and remain as optimistic as possible.
A year that I got jolted out of my simple lil world
A year I decide to go for my dreams,
A year I have to accept reality.
A year that I embraced an extraordinary relationship.




my mind whispered 'I dont wanna lose you yet'
as i laid in ur arms.

Labels: Reflections, Sour

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