it really BLASTED!



I dropped by school today on my free-day for NUS Dance Blast Audition. Hahas. SOunds like I'm mad! Since when i'm so enthu right, the usual slacker...ahahhas. BUt well, i've decided to give things a try in this last lap of my education life. Try things that Ive never tried, it would be great!

Many people turned up for the audition and i found several unexpected faces there..like Gwen. I won't expect to see her there. Neither would she expect my presence i guess. hahas. As usual, the dance steps were like typical Hip-hop dance steps, fast-like-hell and full of energy. The audition itself was stressful at the beginning, dancing in front of 4 professional judges, its another stress fighting war. but after a while, everything becomes a heck care thing and just dance..even though some steps cant be rmb.. hahas.

Still love the dancers. hahas. :] Cool like mad!

And yes, the results would be out within a week's time. I have no HIGH hopes of getting into it. I would be damn happy to get in.But i won't feel sad either if i failed to get in, one reason still being...the practice day is on Wed (my free day). hahas.that would mean my free day is gone. (Still, the slacker's mind) But well...we'll see. aahahas.

Oh...my luck is baddddddddd recently. hahas. what happened to my 'lucky gal' title?? I have met sickos/pervertic man 2 days in a streak....zzzzzzzzzzz. it really send goosebumps..and scares me off. Plus! I fell down yester.. =( Good thing is..no one saw. hahas. coz it was at my own corridor
-.-'' No open wound but its hurting on the knee cap's bone now! sighs.



blast the mind, feel the romance!

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BE PSYCHO-ED!



My very first tutorial for the semester (from module that rewards a credit) starts my Week 3 rolling. Psychology.

The tutorial was filled with fun. It wasnt what i had expected. It wasnt dry and just discussion. Before my brain nerves and cells were set to work, we were engaged in 2 experiments.

1. Nose illusion
2. The hand illusion

(thats what my tutor calls it, hahas)

My senses cant really bring me to experience the nose illusion but i felt the hand illusion!

We were given a fake hand that we were supposed to place it on the desk and under the desk, lies our real hand on top on a cardboard. Another partner of yours will stroke your real hand and the fake hand in synchrony for 1 min. In that 1 min, i felt that my hand was that fake hand!
It also works when the fake hand was not on the table. This means, my partner just stroke the table and my hand. I bursted into laughter when i thought that my hand was the desk. Damn hilarious.

Well, but you really have to stare at the desk/fake hand and your partner has to be good at stroking. LOl.


Its amazing how the brain works. From digestions to perception, emotions, sexual desires, attention etc..its all the wonders of the brain and im stillllllll trying to digest these elaborate details of the brain - lobes, nerves, hormones, genes, etc. But i guess its right to say that to understand psychology,we have to approach from the level of a brain first before level of person and level of a group. So, work hard :]



maybe those were illusions too.

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after my dear friend backed out again with so much discussion and stuff.Sighs. hahas. but im used to it already. i got another dear friend of my to head down to Ajisen with me! I just got the soupy craving these days. SOUP SOUP SOUP and thus ramen came to my mind. :]


A million thanks to guanze for the company! hahas. seems to be my frequent meals khaki. LOL.




And i realised, dining at peak hours sucks. hahas. the whole place sounds like a fish market! Everyone's seems to be raising their voices when they speak, i guess thats where all the noises come from.










koon's spicy miso ramen. yes hahas. the spicyness was a no-kick for me since volcano which was supposed to be much spicer has no effect on me either.





loves soup





SCHOOL

And yes. School has started for 2 weeks. Fornightly tutorials are rolling in from next week onwards. Stress is the word that many freshies seems to be facing now. Lost in lectures, not knowing what the hell the lecturer is talking about, we just shut down after like 1 hour. And before we know, when we login into IVLE, announcements are telling us to prepare for MID-TERM now! Discussion for mid-term will commerce in tutorial 1.

This is damn fast! And now, i realised ther's so much readings to be done. At least before i enter those tutorial. I dont want to enter with a blur-like-sotong state of mind.

I hate the sentence 'pls read the readings' or anything similar.sobs. hahas.

But still gd news for sch are friends are increasing! Its amazing how i can just talk to strangers that i see along the corridors. hahas. Perharps those are my friendly mood days.


time for bed soon!

gdnites, all my dear friends :]]


the lock to the door has changed?

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the timetable of the lucky gal :]

memories in a moment can be indelible

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THE RELUCTANT MIND


its soo cold tonight.

i was so reluctant to get out of the warm bath just now. Staying under the warm water made me felt better. Showered with warmth, I didnt want the water to stop flowing on me as dryness would mean a cold gush of wind will go by and i will feel it.

Deep inside the heart, probably the same thing is being felt. Just wanna stay to let this warmth sprinkle. Even if its a lil, it still beats the cold wind that would gush by when the warmth stop flowing.

but i still know, we still have to stop the bath and get out of it and face it. The coldness still have to be felt, sooner or later.

Just put on the clothes and find a different kind of warmth, though it might not be as ideal. Ther's no such thing as staying in your own comfort zone forever.





don't be afraid. head forward for anything that is to come.

Labels: Bitter, Emo.., inner voices

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One of the very few family photos. Mum wants it developed and put it in her wallet! :] but well, the half naked man spoilt the pic alil. Mum is 1 year older now! Looking at the photos, it seems like she had really grown more haggard over the few years. I guess those slogging had worn her out. Felt pretty bad bout it when she told me that she ought to work at least until my uni is over. Just have to wait for my graduation before i can really support part of her living expenses. Meanwhile, i'll be a good gal! Save money for her. Hahas.

An evidence of happiness. :]

simple

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20 WAYS TO STAY HAPPY?


Saw this article and wants to share with all my readers! It may not all apply but its good to realise that its not hard to stay happy. I guess never be too greedy for happiness. Wants for happiness will never end. If there are stages to be name for happiness, reaching Stage 10 would induce us to wanna climb to stage 11 and higher and higher.

I read this book regarding happiness some time ago. Happiness itself could be a matter of getting used to it. Somehow or rather when things are fresh, experiences are new,u'll feel happy with it. You would have thought thats the happiness! But as time passed,when u got used to everything,the level of happiness may not be that high anymore. I've thought through it and i think its true to some extent. It seems to be the nature of human to never get contentment when emotions evolved into a matter of habit. [high possibility of it] Well, im trying to know how my life is great and appreciate everything thats around me. Even for the shortest time.

Here you GOOOOO... :]

1. Count Your Blessings
2. Hear the Music [blast ur ears w happy songs or some emo songs.hahas]
3. Snog. Canoodle. Get it on
4. Nurture your Spirituality
5. Move Your body [yes! being active, exercise is the way!]
6. Laugh BIG [Super impt for me!]
7. Do Something Nice for Someone else
8. Make more money than your Peers
9. Seek Positive Emotion as a Path to Success
10. Identify With Your Heritage
11. Use a Happy Memory as a guide [but not living in the past i guess]
12. Play the Part of An Optimist
13. Try New Things [new things are new forms of happiness]
14. Tell Your Story to Someone
15. Balance Work and Home
16. Be Like the Danes, Keep Expectations Realistic
17. Make Time [some time to slack is still cool!]
18. Visualise Happiness
19. Smile [its never hard to smile!]
20. Marry Happy

http://www.time.com/time/specials/2007/article/0,28804,1631176_1630611,00.html
Read the WHOLE article here! ;]

have bolded those applied to me,so far!





You? are u happy?

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LOOK AROUND YOU

Labels: inner voices

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MY OWN TIME



Well, i seriously went for my retail therapy in mind. Yes with these 2 things in mind, Perfume and Bottoms. I got them both. My trophies of the day! After pondering for a long long time between Ralph Lauren's Romance and Chanel's Chance. I got my 'Chance' in the end, since Romance smells a lil too sweet some how. Im developing some *hmphs kind of phobia for sweet stuff. hahas. Oh and thanks to the great man for GD RECOMMENDATION. Im still very impressed!

And yea before i forget, i saw this funny tie in Topman. BARTLEYANS, miss that?

hahaa....the tie totally looks like our Bartley Tie.LOLs.makes me wanna Laugh. But im alone. cant laugh,people will think im insane. hahas.

Second trophy would be...the Levis Lady Style jeans. I dunnoe what hit me today to make me actually spend that much! BUt, i believe....hahas its really retail THERAPY.

I din forget bout cam-whoring too. so. hahas, one of the very few things you can do when u're out alone.

ANd to sidetrack a lil, my dad asked me this when he saw one of my pic!
"you have a dimple? Since when??"



I was like...YEA!, see! and i smiled for him to see. hahas. cute dad.









pre-Monday BLUES!

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A NEED


Im in need of some Retail Therapy to quell down the worries and nervousness for sch! School is starting tomorrow and its still a lil hard to believe. Im too excited and worried at the same time.

Sad thing is my shopping Khakis are busy and next alternatives like big sis are also out. She's having a swollen leg then and cant walk. Well for my younger sis, she's at work! Yes, on a Sunday.


Looks like my last choice is to do some shopping on my own!

On my mind,
CK in2u her, CK Summer Breeze or Chanel Chance or otherS? hahas.
bottoms?



to quell all unwanted emotions.

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RAG @ PADANG

Bits and pieces on the lap. LOL

My velvety mushroom.

End of day w beancurd @ Selegie

HeartBrOken news always come at the same time =[

Labels: Dine, Uni-

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CHANGES


The least expected thing came last night. It wasnt really a heavy load on my mind. But it still strucked me, for that few moments.

Overnight changes can just hit one person, the lifestyle, entertainment, words and thoughts.
The more that made me wonder if how another person who probably has hurt the other party changed him in a negative way, in my opinion. How can one do such a great damage on the other party.

The power of one changing another still made me think that emotions are fragile no matter how strong it seems to be. It falls when the emotional reliance goes off, esp for undeveloped mind still. We need some ways, some crazy ways to release it.

I think drastic changes overnight are scary. It gives the person no time to think if those changes are justified and are they worth it. Changes over time, i guess its better. I would like to believe that tags along more reflections and aims(the changes like to achieve) than a adrupt random change.


Losta more to say but lazy to type. hahahas.


Last of all before i go, HAPPY BIRTHDAY JERICA! :] owe u a present yea!




Change for the better.

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CHALLENGES


Bidding has sorta ended for me officially. I got all my 5 modules, well..not all of them were the top priority though.

I never even thought that I would like a Science Mod, 'General Biology'. But under the recommendation of my senior, yes i bidded for it and i got it at 1 pt.I hope everything will turn out well.

While im greeted with the good news of getting my modules, i saw a new challenge in my way even before sch starts. This adds on a lil panics to this freshie here. hahas. Projects to be done for 'Changing Landscapes of Singapore'. I have to form a group of 2-3. Hahas. Gotto find a partner then. Well, but i guess i should not worry that much as lessons haven even started yet! :]





lower the expectations, lesser the disappointment.

Labels: Uni-

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EVE

Can you actually tell the difference between the milk tea and yuan yang? They just look the same to me! We were wondering what macau style was like for guanze's Pork Chop burger. Final conclusion is well, "M"acau style is "MESSY" style. hahas.

Spent some time at the playground while waiting for the great jer to reply us on the nite activities. I was screaming away when guanze suddenly let me drop down on the standing see-saw. Its was damn embarassing. I think my screams frightened this poor kid standing at the side watchin. hahas. We ended up playing with the kids and i was ignored by this lil superman. hahas.

Cam-whoring @ playground.

Finally caught the light speckles after like 4 tries. Hmm, i was said to have lousy cam skills, but well.....

These puppies are just simply too adorable! I wanna conquer my fear for them! :] but, it'll take time yea. hahas.


KBOX


The word Kbox still sounds weird coming fr the great jer's mouth. LOl and his ears might have become deaf now from losing excessive blood. Nevetheless, the 3 of us still got the privillege of hearing the fragments of his chinese. :] its aint that bad yea. hahas.

Labels: Dine, Friendship, inner voices

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Dreams OR Reality


2 years later,im thinking and wondering about the real meaning of certain things. They are for sure part of the reality yet they feel very much like dreams.It feels like everything has never happened before. You could reminisce about those sweet days or even arguing days, no doubt they are ur memories. But i'll still ask myself : "are they real" they seems like dreams.

U may no longer feel the existence of it again, just like really a dream. The things still remain there.Probably photos, gifts and videos, the physical existence of these items just keep the truth there, everything is nothing more real than reality. The inability to feel the memories, especially memories that seems to be fading away makes it surreal. Too good to be true or..too bad to be true? When u try recalling back, it feels simply that u have awaken fr a long deep sleep. The kind of dreams that you'll always wonder, is that a dream or it did happened?

its getting harder to differentiate from dreams and reality. Past and Present.


SO tell me,everything in life esp esp past relationships...

dreams or reality?



its in the memories

Labels: Emo.., inner voices

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Lychee Martini

MORE PHotOS FROM ZOUK THAT NITE

DANCE FLOOR : koon ,Perry

Out of ZOuk! : koon, Shallow KIng. ( I did smile yea)

Labels: Chill, Club, Dine, Friendship, happy food., Indelible memories, my love :), Sweet

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PLEASE UNDERSTAND


Don't ask me so many questions.
Don't assume that I take everything really that lightly.

Sympathy is not the way to go.
I wish to sympathise in his situation but maybe in another way.

1,2,3,4...the four of you who are supposedly to be the closest to koon blames her.
Continous nagging.. questioning, alleged conclusions.

Spare a thought for ur daughter too.

DOnt push me back into the circle of agony when im more or less out of it.




understand me, my plight.

Labels: Emo.., enraged

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While waiting for the guys.. koon,Char,Qiuhan

I left the club with a tired mind and messy hair - thanks to Guan ze and Jeremy! But, i got my revenge too. lol.x


there's supposed to be more pics but.......with Perry!




Dance away worries, Scream away troubles and LAUGH for joy.

Labels: Club

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WORRIES


arghs,bidding starts tml and all the crap and stunts came today.Chinese afterall..no no cant seem to attract me also.

QET results=3=fail

lolx

means i cant take TS also. =(
gotto replannnnn,so afraid that i would just choose one darn wrong mod.alrights alrights,think optimistically,koon!




the price of freEdom.

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