Complexity in Simplicity

Sunday, August 31, 2008

.Chatterbox: It's up there.

28 Aug 08

Cheeky and I revisited Chatterbox at Meritus Mandarin to satisfy his craving for the chicken rice. [To The Previous Visit] Away from the ground floor and relocated high up at the 38th Floor where Top of the M used to be. There was this deja-vu when we took the lift up the 38th floor, when I was brought there during my birthday last year. Sadly, all the deja-vu kinda took a stop when the lift's door open.

We were brought before glass panels where the warmth of the evening shone in glaringly. It was kinda disappointing to see that even Observatory Lounge is no longer there but replaced by Chatterbox too - the chilling area. The dinner area was up the red-carpeted spiral stairs which has lost its magical effects too. It could have been due to the time of the day. Evening being evening brings a different kind of ambience. But still, it was nice 'watching the sunset', which can be considered as Cheeky's first sunset since his return.. Oh, and the thing is...it's not even revolving anymore...

And so, it just made me realised sometimes it's not so much of the location. But it's the location matched with the interior decoration of a place, plus the range and type of patrons it has and the ambience that the restaurant provides via music and probably kind of services provided.

Food in natural lighting

The same yummy Fried Dumpling and Chicken Rice... which has alot alot alot of meat..

This missing man

Oh, and this man has been missing from my cameras for a few months.. The first pics we had since his return... Cheeky being cheeeky...trying to mimic the koon's sleeping look. hahas.

Best Shot of the Day

And 27 & 28 Aug 08 marks one year to the day of our first date! It's probably the only relationship which I actually remember when is the first date..

my all

11:29 PM

Labels: Extravagance/Fine-Dining, happy, my love :)

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Tuesday, August 26, 2008

.Round the Globe

List of Places..

Aww. I dream of going to the Santorini Island in Greece since I was in like J1... kinda exotic yet soothing and seems like a really good get-away. And most importantly...feels like a romantic lil place..

This is gonna blow me away... ><

- Athens, Greece

- Paris

- Spain, Barcelona

- Copenhagen, Denmark

- Rome

- NYC

- London

- France

- Berlin

and more Asia:

- TW

- HK

- Japan

- Korea

- Australia

and I had this love for bridges... they hold such special meanings...an unexplanable kind..

- Puente de Alamillo, Spain

- kintai-kyo, Japan

- Sydney Harbour bridge

- Golden bridge & San Diego-Coronado Bridge, California

- Charles Bridge, Prague, Czech Republic

- Tower bridge, England

- Bridge of the Americas, Panama

- Oberbaumbrücke, Germany

- Erasmusbrug, Netherlands

updated on 27 Aug 08.

Yupps. Everyone or most of us dream of travelling... Gonna update this list and add more places of mine when I come across wonderful places! And i'm gonna strike them off one by one when I have the resources! :D

yupps. Apparently...I'm drifting off my work since a couple of hours ago... Think i'm dreaming too much..

maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing my time

12:21 AM

Labels: Dreams

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.7 Deadly Sins. 7 Heavenly Virtues.

Yupps. I'm idling my time away now; taking a little break from this long day.

I began to wonder about the history of 7 deadly sins - Lust, Gluttony, Greed, Sloth, Wrath, Envy, Pride. So I started reading. And I happened to come across the existence of the idea of 7 heavenly virtues which somewhat complements those sins. Via self evaluation and online tests, such double affirmation tells myself that I was right. So right. My greatest deadly sin..it's PRIDE otherwise known as vanity as well. Here of course, I thought bout the extent of each sins in me afterall everyone has a little of everything. Dont tell me you dont.

Much to wonder about the 7 heavenly virtues, some sources provided 8 of them. But basically it's prudence, justice, hope, love, faith, courage, temperance..all rein to the moral wings.

Yet, if you think bout it..too much of the virtues can actually lead to sins as well..dont they? All things come in moderation. All good things turn bad when there's too much..

oh no. i'm so tired and in pain to type a proper entry.. =x stop here first.. :(

i'll seize the day if you take away

11:52 PM

Labels: Reflections

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.Flashbacks

I was listening to Class95 when this song regarding protection was played...didnt really caught the title of the song though as I was lost in my own flashbacks of fond memories.

A simple act on the way to the club. That was the first time. A subtle gentlemaniness displayed by a mere displacement of myself from the outer part of the road, supposedly dangerous to a clumsy one, to the inside where there's double safety - the absence of moving cars and the presence of a 'protector'. And when this act left me with silly and discrete smiles for the night and for the subsequent days when I recalled, I still cant help smiling and feel the sweetness for an act which probably no one pays attention to now.

~Good Nights :D

I pray.
I stay.

1:58 AM

Labels: my love :), Sweet, Time Machine

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Saturday, August 23, 2008

.When I grow up

When I Grow Up by Pussycat Dolls

The new dance song today after Lavigne admitted that Lip Gloss was rather hiphop rather than Reggae. And this choreography is more fun and sexy according to what she said. Wonderful song. It's constantly playing in my mind now.

I was looking at the lyrics of the song or the title of the song even. It made me wonder how vulnerable one may get as we grow up. Ironic to the adage of 'one should get stronger as we grow'. We had so many dreams for life, so much hopes for it when we were younger. I haven experienced it, perhaps like what he said..i'm one of those lucky kids around. Jaded and fearful; uncertainties. The struck of all these. Growing up is not always a good thing..

_____

" You know, when I laid down there...lost for words, yet again. I really wished those hugs could make you feel better. My laughters can be a bit more contagious even if its just for a while. I meant what I said.. to stay by you. To really disrregard the past way of lifestyle; we all adapt isnt it? And I think I or we know whats behind 'The Great Pretender"...and we both didnt say anything until certain times..But I know what it means with the simple words too... 'a big boy'. The ways to handle one is to believe this one knows what he's doing and will confide when he needs to.."

I'm not really considered a very big girl yet..to be totally sensible and even be able to understand the psychology of grown-ups. This has to be examined from a few aspects of psy - developmental, cognitive and perhaps even social psy.. But even at a young age of 19, I understand the need to be able to left alone to solve and think through things. Of course, apparently, this does not apply to everyone of us. Just like how I hate it when I'm down, people began to shower extra care and concern, it's like becoming a little gal again overnight. Just feels so weird, so wrong. It would feel like sympathetic concern or in worst cases, for-show concern.

So essentially, i believe..care and concern are important but not overly excessive to feel abit more real, and more sincere. I think, i think and i think (of coz from my point of view, and most likely applies to myself).. be there silently, like as usual..and only speak when need to. Yet, it's a dilemma of how to strike a balance in giving when you consider the possible factors.. the effects of it when you give more or give less. But I think this man here works pretty much the same way as I do in this area; perhaps w a slight difference.

~playing 'Miss you in a Heartbeat' by Def Leppard.

crown of scars

11:02PM

Labels: Dance, Media, my love :), Reflections

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Wednesday, August 20, 2008

.Studious

Yupps. Guess it's time to mention something about school! So far, school has been fantastic! I guess when you have the drive to do something, everything becomes easier. It seems like 80-90% of my mind is wanna-study-hard.

Weird it may be, before the start of school..I have been looking forward for school to start! To be mugging once again. Somehow it feels really good doing some of these things.

Now, these days... as I was telling Cheeky and Charmaine..I dont really mind staying in school longer and later. Somehow it feels good as well. I just don't know why all the things I've dreaded since JC (to stay away from school) is reversing its way round. I'm taking the extra effort to complete the readings and revise the lectures! :D

loving MINI CORNETTO!
loving VITAGEN COLLAGEN!
loving colourful babyy biscuits!

11:38 PM

Labels: Uni-

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Monday, August 18, 2008

.Spinning Butterfly

Spinning Butterfly, UP!

Will you stay awake for me?
I don't wanna miss anything.
12:32 AM

Labels: my love :)

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.Mummy's Birthday

Part I: You have a choice.

Sis and I took Mum to choose her own cake and buy some of her favourite food. That's first, i think. To let her choose her own cake rather than we making the choice for her. And perhaps, well hopefully, when one is left with a right to choose, it is another form of joy.

Unlike what I've expected (that a fruity cake would be chosen), Mum initially wanted a chocolate cake but decided on a coffee cake at last.

Part II: Reminiscing Childhood.

The biker Dad took Mum to Old Kallang Airport to have her favourite Satay Noodles which she used to have since she was young.. And the 'kids'? We stayed at home, hees. Coz it was inconvenient and we didn't wanna go too. Maybe that would give them a little privacy too.. hahas.

Part III: Before the usual.

We cutted the cake after sis's bf arrived, at a late 10pm. And it's always during the such moments...Mum will grin widely as if showing a slight shyness.

52 and still pretty :D

Yupps. These are all of us..who sorta celebrated this day with her. Only regrets will be to be taking photos in unglam home clothes. But well, hmphs, plain and simple.

~happy birthday.

Honesty is a wonderful wonderful thing :D

12:11 AM

Labels: Family

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Saturday, August 16, 2008

.Real hugs and kisses, anytime.:D

I'm back!

Like the previous post suggest, yupps!! Cheeky has arrived in Singapore 5days ago, safely and happier! :D

I remember how things were so surreal on the first night, Tues Morning. The first first thing we did the moment I hopped onto his car was endless kisses and hugs; like yea, we missed each other for two long months. Back home, beside the familiar double decker bed with some changes in the room, I watched him unpack his evidence of consumerism...for sure, it's more scary than I had imagined. He did bought alot alot of stuff..And even in the process of unpacking, the 'cant-help-it' factor made him gave me kisses and hugs here and there.. =x.. :D
And I always thought the look he has during packing or unpacking is funny.. hahas* Oh, and I received 3 tops and this spinning butterfly window thingy from him. hahas, I don't know what it's called.

And really..on the first night and perhaps even until the second day.. the whole feeling of having each other by each other's side is just like a surreal wonderland.. Like exactly what he said.. "it's like the soul is not in the body''. Things we couldnt believe it. And I just didnt knew how much I really miss holding his hands and walk together (yupps, even that.) until bedtime.

And bedtime is always the best best time at home. Not coz of a piggy-mindset but it's the kind of warmth I have there for me (since normally only i'm feeling cold) under the blanket. The slow drift-away from consicous in his arms, beside the soft thumping heartbeat. And the laughing at each other moments and koon's constant laughter, the fun before bedtime! Hahas, and suddenly I tot of the rotating of the blanket to the right side. hahahas. The being laughed at rolling and the curlings.

And next day, finally, we had dinner together at home at 10PM! Oh yes, coz we woke up super late. And i meant..super. hahas. Missing the eating dinner at home times terribly. To me, eating at home is always an exclusive thing we have together, before the TV.

Well, this week..though it's the first week of school...Cheeky was the priority, to the extent that I skipped lectures which I think may not be important. I only attended GEK1529 ever since his return =x

And I really miss those words said face-to-face. Like 'little darling', 'cute' and so on and so on. It's gonna be an endless list.

14 Aug 08

Happy 11 Months!

:DD

Just two days after his arrival, it's the 11th anniversary. And seriously, I don't feel the real need for this anniversary to be celebrated outside the house. Just in the house... it still feels good, like afterall..it's still being with the significant one that matters.

As the clock begans to tick closer to 12a.m, signalling the end of this day and just as I turned to the com trying to start my webcast.. A black case 'popped out' in front of me.

Goodness. It's a watch! And I always always love watches..! Watches, locks and keys always have a special meaning for me but I just can't explain how and what.

"It's a watch!" I asked. Next, I asked.."Can I open it?" And of course i'm greeted with a 'Of course!"

Thank you my dear. I Love the gift! Another really pretty watch for me! Yayys! :)

Ticking in pink.

It's such a lovely feeling to be together, side by side...

You no longer hold the same status, not like years before.

know your limits well.

(nope. im not talking bout Cheeky nor myself)

8:32 PM

Labels: ecstatic, Indelible memories, my love :)

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Tuesday, August 12, 2008

.Surprise Return?

A Quick Post!

The long wait and countdowns are over!! :D

Cheeky (hmphs) 'surprising' return...

:DD

In a short while!

1:00 AM

Labels: my love :)

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Saturday, August 09, 2008

.Overlooked

I was planning the full timetable for school, that is including tutorial slots in it. And I just couldnt believe my eyes when I saw the tutorial slots (only Wed slots) for "Samurai, Geisha, Yakuza as Self or Other" clashing with "Food & Health" lecture. I checked, double-checked and checked again. Yupps. They clashed.

So now that would mean...I will probably have 4days week on alternatate weeks and going to school JUST to attend a 2 hour tutorial on a Thurs.. (Unless I drop that module. But I have real limited choices now)

On a positive note, that might have mean a less slack semester or rather push me to be less slack. Perhaps really a push for me to really study hard and serious this semester. Year 2 is beginning in 2 days time. And I gotto study hard for my own goal! I guess it's all the rest I have during this holiday that makes me feel I'm like totally ready for school. I can't wait to read Social Psy! It's one of my favourite! :DDD

Oh and I should record this. I removed that irritating little thing on me yesterday! (7Aug08). Hopefully it will be fine! :D..I always remembered how people like JianXun who laughed at me in front of so many people, saying how he wished to pluck it out. Those times in Secondary School, I really wished to hide into some holes..Even though I have gotten used to it as I grow, it's always on my mind to possess some kind of a flawless or flaws less beauty...

It's my Heartbeat.

It's getting louder..

1:25AM

Labels: Myself, Uni-

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Wednesday, August 06, 2008

.Drive away

yea..doing collage(s).......
suddenly feel excited and also in dilemma.... There's always something to draw my attention away...

I tried to climb your steps.
I tried to chase you down.
I tried to tame this mind.

10:15 PM

Labels: Myself

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.Should I?

I'm asking myself this question now: How much love do I have for it?
It's gonna be another heavy burden along the months. Thinking if i can manage this additional burden coz once I start...I don't really wanna stop so soon..

I really love it...but how much is this love worth? How far does it qualify for my investments - time, effort and money...

Arghs. I hate it when financial tightness has to stop me from doing what I want. Then again, who will like that?

dilemma..

9:26 PM

Labels: Dance

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.Sunny-side up, please.

Beat the bad times with positive thoughts that can shape your life.

I read an interesting article on Sunday from Straits Times. An article that made me agree with it. It is a pretty optimistic piece of article. But it would be good to note that a cancer patient wrote this. Perhaps I'm still not jaded enough to find this article THAT delusional. But I hope it will give some light to the down ones. I have skipped the intro though.

".........I have since come to believe in the power of the mind. I do not mean to suggest that the mind can overcome all suffering or illness. This is too simplistic a view.

But I do think there is some truth to the truism that we are what we think, and wisdom n the old adage that positive thinking can transform lives.

If nothing else, putting a positive spin when going through a difficult phase in life helps us stay hopeful- even if it does little to change the material facts of the circumstances.

And as we all know, hope in the face of adversity can be a great source of strength.

Sentient, feeling, loving human beings are no strangers to sufferings. Pain is a constant in life; only those who have stopped loving and stopped growing feel no pain. When one feels pain, the temptation to anaesthetise it away with activity is strong. It is only when we embrace the pain, accept it, trace its contours, learn its rhythms, that we can hope to move beyond that valley of pain, into the flatlands of daily, routine of life.

In the darkness of the valley, it is easy to lose sight of hope. It is easy to mistake a transitory journey through the darklands, for a permanent sojourn.

It is precisely at such times, that the power of the mind can work wonders.

When I go through these valley experiences, I have come to rely on an arsenal of tools both spiritual and material.

In the material world, I stave off depression by tapping on friends and company. I try to eat regularly and sleep well, with the aid of herbal or medical concoctions if necessary.

I make myself do things even when all I want to do is stay home and mope. I dragged friends to shop with me, take time out for a massage, visit someone - even when every light in my universe seems dimmed, when every activity is poignant with loss and anguish.

My spiritual arsenal has expanded over the years. Meditation in the Catholic tradition has become a lifesaver, as has more mainstream forms of prayer.

When the heart and mind want to dwell excessively on negativity and pain, I practise the habit of zapping negative thoughts.

It's very simple: you learn to identify the thought patten that triggers feelings of despair. You zap the thought and say: Stop.

You replace that negative thought pattern with a pre-determined sentence or affirmation that is positive and life-giving.

It is amazing how well such a simple prescription works, and how quickly you are able to stop trains of negative thinking in their tracks.

Amid the confusion and pain of a turbulent episode - whether it's a major illness, a divorce, a bereavement of a job loss - it requires superhuman effort to remember that life is not always so grey. It require wilful effort to believe that one day, things will get better.

For most of us, the pattern of our lives and memories of happier times, will beat out this faith that from the desolation of the ashes today, a phoenix may arise tomorrow.

Positive affirmations are one simple way to help us remember that after the tempest comes the rainbow - whose beauty can stir our battered souls.

If all these sound like mumbo-jumbo to you, at least know that there are sizeable numbers of people in the world today practising such esotheric mind practices who will swear they work.

A 2006 movie, The Secret, tells of the "law of attraction" - a reference to the belieft that positive thinking and hopeful expectation attracts what we want into our lives.

This is apparently not a new idea but can be traced back to ancient Egyptian and Hindu Philosophies.

I've often thought of God and the universe as benign beings who want good to human beings. If that stands, it's a matte of simple logic to believe that God, the universe, all powers that be, conspire to give you the things you need and want, which are good for you and good for others. And they are just a hopeful, positive, wilful thought away.

Call me an optimist, but I reckon that a pretty hopeful way upon which to build a life."

Taken from Thesundaytimes August 3, 2008 by Chua Mui Hoong.

I didnt buy the faith in God of hers. Personally I find the strength in her fight towards the ugly phase of life remarkable. I've always thought it's really important to never lose hope. True enough, hopes are things of uncertainty..they may once again bring you down into disappointment but it makes one alive.. Sometimes we wonder, why do we fight on? For various reasons I guess.

She said.."only those who have stopped loving and stopped growing feel no pain". I thought it was so true. It will be scary to see one feeling immune to the ugly phase of life, when u gave up in everything even in prayers. Someone with no love and stopped growing is as good as an emotionless corpse which is more scary than an anguish alive feeling soul. Sometimes I really look forward to the innocence in life. Seems like innocence loves the most and is still growing at the most.

Having said that, hopes cant be inserted into a person just like this. We need to find it ourselves, within ourselves.

You make it easier to be me

6:34 PM

Labels: Media, Reflections

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Sunday, August 03, 2008

.Possessed

2 Aug 08

Dance was great yesterday, totally leaving me out of breath after the dance. We've completed another choreography..the 6th choreography I think. And this was the ladies' performance piece during the party weeks ago. And yupps..while we were trying to perfect the accent of the dance using control. Dance is always a joy! :D And I've left my name for LA HipHop a few weeks ago..yupps gonna take up another dance! And this time round, I might have my sisters joining with me..

After dance, I decided to get my Ipod at Cine I-shop. And I lost to vanity, gave in to style than practicality. Feels as if an ultimate vain soul had possessed myself these months. But well, this is something I always wish to have since months ago. Seems like I have to get what I want, regardless of what.

Style over Practicality

3 Aug 08

And just an hour ago, I completed a spring cleaning in my room..From tables, DVD home theatre area, Drawers, cabinets, Floor, Bed..I gave them a good clearance, wipes, vacuums and arrangement! It's a sign that I'm getting ready for school once again! From young, I have this weird habit..that is to clean up my room before I set off for mugging for exams and before school starts. I think a clean environment really makes me feel ready, fresh and weirdly..happier!

Some people commented that I get happy over small things. But I don't know..that's me. Being happy ain't that hard right? I always believe that a smiling face can brighten up another's face. Happiness is somewhat contagious or should I say emotions are contagious. You'll feel equally dull if your loved ones are not happy.

The Almost-Perfect Workspace, and all the other display on my desk.. ;p

And lastly...kinda really like this collage I created last week. Narcissistic..yes. But just cant help liking it. :D

This fire fighting to survive.

6:05 PM

Labels: Extravagance/Fine-Dining, happy, Myself, Retail Therapy

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Friday, August 01, 2008

.The Merger's Chalet.

Bloodshot eyes are what i'm having right now. I havent got enough sleep yet; 4hours since the sleepless chalet. Beng and Ze were trying to keep me awake...

Pammie and I met up at HGM to get the stuff needed for the pot-luck before we make our way to Pasir Ris where we met Ze.. I'm so glad that we went against his idea to walk there...yes..everywhere is walkable to him but that was simply too far! And under the burning hot sun, We said ''no!"

A very very nice sky with well-blended colours. I always love dusk...the colours in the skies always brighten up my mood and it's just something so natural....the colours are always different..never the same everyday. Of coz I love nights too...thats another feel as a whole. The peace, the breeze, the darkness.

From the top.

Now..it's pammie turn and I so happened to capture this piece of bullying evidence. Hmphs.

Vast

Photos photos and photos...

We got carried away talking about "The Official Status" in a relationship. The kinds of questions to ask. Who ask? When to ask? Actions before words? What does certain actions mean? We even tried holding each other hands....trying to understand which way makes a difference. Will gals ask 'the question'..yes..how? No..Why?

Sent me laughing away from point to point. And no..i dont need to find the moon. Errr...okae. lolx.

And well...these talks were only within Pam, Ze, Char,Beng and me!

And Beng started talking to me bout Personal Identity which can be taken as Philo/Psy Mod too..I'm so interested in it... But it's level 4000, i'm gonna take it next year if they are still offering by visiting lecturer.

And yes...I still cant agree nor understand totally bout the Twins Paradox even though Einstein Relativity Paradox makes sense to me. They dont seem to apply the same way to me..

Jonathon and I were trying to hang there. hahahas

All the group photos before my 2 gals leave..

Beng & I decided to fetch Ze from the bus-stop since he sent the 2 of em to the interchange..And all the Choya impule that Beng had sent us walking ALL THE WAY to Elias Mall and found ourselves disappointed with "No Choya''. Persistency sent us walking further down to the nearest Petro Station and we yielded the same results..

And for the rest of the night?..hmm, card-games (Shit-head is fun!)..."half/more than half? Comparable", Chats, Swings..

im really so tired!

think bidding is gonna be fine.

9:39 PM

Labels: Uni-

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.Whats more than me?

She could say more than I ever could, know ways to put things in light.
While what I've said were all ordinary and plain. I call it tasteless even to the tongue buds. Whose words make a significant impact complemented with the person's importance and status to one...the smallness made me felt like doing nothing. Nothing at all. To turn myself away so far. Run away. It could be only myself, only myself that took note of such stuff. But things dont go that way..when you dont realise, it doesnt mean that it didnt exist or haven't exist.

I've lost so much in time and perhaps not just time im losing out. Time for things around me, between each shuffling shoulders..it makes a difference. And if it has to be compensated by something else...I say and I think it's background. Background of one. And i cant even match up to that. Each time I think of the mocking sentences, it puts me in dull light. Mocking sentences do not carry the same weight when different people said it. And well, it could be imagination or wild thoughts you call it. But it's not always like this for Some things you know for sure.

I don't know if i should be happier or sadder..it's always a complex feeling. But thank god optimism has taught me to drain the unhappy, remember the happiness and think in the most positive way..

Strange. Our lifes coincide with the seasons of today.

5:30 PM

Labels: Emo.., inner voices

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