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Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Threesome: Shop & Hard Rock Cafe
Saturday - 27th September 08 A date with Goey to finally check out Hard Rock Cafe as mentioned during my holidays. Oh man, that's like don't-know-how-long-ago! And my sis was feeling bored so she tagged along.. The gals went kinda out-of-control at Zara (grins) in shoes today. I fell in love with the 129bucks booties. I wanna get at least one booties these days...there are just so cool yet cute sometimes. I was just randomly capturing pics and it turns out that this pic is really artistic...in my own opinion at least. Partially coz it was messy. Seems like you cant be too neat to be Artsy.. :D Evening dawned...and we found ourselves hungry and tired from the shopping. We almost wanted to settle for Caurousel at Royal Plaza on Scotts but apparently coz of Ramadan, the price rose up by a huge gap, according to !!!. Think its a good place for Rock Oldies lover...Half the time..they were playing really old rock songs..(which only one ive seen before is Blondie..coz of Cheeky) the rest? I have no idea at all. Isnt really a good place if you're looking for one where u can have a good conversation..coz u have to raise ur volume by one or two. But I guess they play modern rock too..like 'Never again' from Kelly Clarkson's previous album. The interior, together with the Menu, was kinda Americanised..displayed of guitars all over the place and the significant rock stars' posters and items (like that big coat of...*hmm) A place for birthday apparently...in merely 1 hr plus...ther's already like 7 birthday songs heard....But the way they do it is quite cool though...The fish&co alike way but with announcements across the 2 levels..bells...song and sometimes a live performance like singing by friends.. and probably w a much better complimentary sundae.. Haven met up with Goey for a couple of months. The same sentence is always heard when we meet up.. "I wonder when's the next time we're going to see each other again"...Nowadays, it seems to become a once every few months thing.. :( bad! But I guess that's what happen when we get so busy with life. Are we really? ![]() The 'Rock' Chop - A large center cut smoked Rib Pork Chop grilled and basted with a sweet Maple-mustard glaze. Served with White Cheddar smashed potatoes,fresh vegetable and a fresh Granny Smith Apple-Mango chutney. I ordered the 'Rock' Chop thinking that it could probably be one of their specialities. Taking a mouthful from the smashed potatoes.. (now, it's really smashed here,not mashed) and noticed the different from the normal ones with the gravy on it. Nope, it didnt had any gravy on it...was just lightly sweetened. At first I thought I tasted milk in it. Like the sweetened top, by the Apple-Mango Chutney, on the Rib Pork...gave it a 2 layered taste to it. Although half the time I cant see them due to the darkness of the cafe. Weird...but I love the burnt sides of the Rib Pork Chop...but the meat was alil alil hard for me. hees. Twisted Mac, Chicken and Cheese..: A grilled chicken breast tops off twisted Cavatappi pasta tossed in a lightly spiced 3-cheese sauce, with garlic, roasted red peppers and Romano parsley bread crumbs. Served with a side of garlic toast.† An order made by sister as she didnt wanna have too much meat. It was actually Macoroni with cheese with quite a nice cheese-sauce...coz it wasnt too thick that makes u feel sick after a few mouthful. Light yet creamy as the key. Tried alil of the garlic toast too...Besides adding abit of a variety to the dish... it is really not the prime of the dish.. Hickory Smoked Bar-B-Que Chicken..: Famous Southern-style half-chicken, rubbed, grilled and basted with our authentic Hickory Bar-B-Que sauce. Served with seasoned fries,ranch beans and fresh coleslaw. Goey's BBq Chicken was really well-smoked. I guess...credits must be given to the Sauce used and skills of the chef. The fries was particularly differently and I really love it...too well seasoned! Another interesting thing is the Ranch beans...yummie.. -propinquity, similarity and maybe a lil of reciprocity- if it's too hot for you.. then drop it to the floor. 2:39 AM Labels: Extravagance/Fine-Dining, Friendship Monday, September 29, 2008
.Other side of the story
Read the Planner's Story for Anniversary, for a complete picture.. :D Thursday, September 25, 2008
.Sudden Retracts
A short post before I start studying for the day. A long but fufilling day. A short project meeting in school, followed by working in sch; photoshop and data entry for a Prof. It amazed me how she identified those badly damaged coins. Voices of 'rotate somemore, further..further' have been ringing in my head for the whole of the afternoon. Before dance, I met up with Cheeky for a relatively short dinner. *soup, soup* Come to think bout it...seems to be some time ago that I actually meet him after his work for dinner. And a chubby machine has detected a fatigue gloom. Headed for Dance practice at 8+...before L.A. Hip Hop begins at 9pm. The way Instructor Ash teaches the class is very much different from Xiao Ke and Lavigne. With a pump of youth, energy and humour into the class..it seems to have lifted the spirits of all. As for the dance style itself, I admit it's tough. It's certainly less tiring than Reggae, since it's more of flow.. but doesnt seem very easy to grasp the flow/waves, isolation and most importantly accent. He mentioned the beauty of L.A. is the sudden retracts and/or pops JUST towards the end of a beat. That's very different what I've done over the past year...an energised-orientated pops and sexy-pretty steps. In L.A., it's more of a cool. Perhaps what they say is right..must be right that you need some time to adapt to the different style of a teacher...all the more, more time required to get used to the style in a particular genre of dance. And I wonder...are dances really gender oriented? As in, are some dances suitable for certain genders of us only? I'm not bringing in Stereotypical views of any but it does show that guys really seem to look better in hip hop like L.A or maybe even lyrical. Conversely, gals definitely look more apt in Girls Hip Hop and Reggae. Then again, that's how those names came bout isnt it? New Choreography song: Invisible by Jackie Boys Newly Addicted-to Songs: Hush Hush by Pussycat Dolls (such an emo song, but so apt to hurt and strong souls in love, though a lil escapist) and Zombie by The Cranberries.. *hahas, I dunnoe how many times I've played them in 2days..more than 10times i think..for the least. - From Everything I Wanted When You Came Along But I'm Never Beaten From Broken Up Defeated I Know Next To You Is Not Where I Belong 1:34 AM Labels: Dance, my love :), Uni-, Work Saturday, September 20, 2008
.Absolute Isolation: Meritus Mandarin
To sum it all before I start, they were surprising, indelible moments, soothing, sweet, cosy and luxurious.. :DD Friday - 12 September The grand plan goes this way.. On Friday night before I pack my stuff for ''weekend home'', I was told not to leave the house until he has told me what's that one thing to bring.. So i waited patiently for this busy man to tell me what's that one thing.. And it turns out to be.... my swimsuit.. ! When I saw Cheeky... I asked him " Uh...are we going swimming?" and I was told that we MAY be going for a swim before anniversary dinner..If not, we can go on Sunday too. Later in the night, Shaun came asking if we wanna join him and his girlfriend for a swim at their dad's condo tomorrow afternoon. And it was dismissed with a 'see-how' response from Cheeky, when I thought they already planned it before-hand. It's just too coincident yea? As promised, Cheeky gave me a hint, on where we're going the next day, before we turned in. - "A place that doesnt close until past midnight" and he wanna cross midnight with me ;D Obviously, this wasnt a very good hint, at least to me. Coz almost everywhere opens past midnight on a Saturday night...I stumbled on my guesses. Saturday - 13 September We diligently packed our swimsuits, grooming needs, the clothes for dinner to go over to his dad's abode for a swim. This man is smart; he came up with the excuse that we dont have time to return and change for dinner so we have to bring our stuff along. And I docilely followed the man, as much as I can according to his plans. While I had totally no idea of the grand plan in mind. All in my mind was how will Swimming be with all of them. On the other hand, Cheeky said he dont really feel anything for the swimming but rather how the plan would work out. The waiting time before the activities for anniversary rolled out was slow.. We tucked ourselves into the car, finding ourselves driving on busy roads in the day-time. It was kinda different. Rather than the usual soothing cruise we had, things felt abit more energised. We had Cheeky cursing and swearing at car-drivers who horned at him. With the guidance from Shaun and Lin to his Dad's place, we arrived at the first destination. Supposedly a destination or not. "Hey where are you going darling?" Cheeky asked me when I opened the car door attempting to get down with Shaun and Lin. This made me pretty puzzled and I probably gave him a blur reply.. "I'm getting off with them?" But I was told to accompany him while he go park the car..outside. Outside? This sounds pretty weird to me. And I was just thinking how weird this condo is, not allowing visitors to park their car inside. (I'm feeling kinda dumb whenever I think of this part). The journey to the car-park "outside" was beginning to feel alil long.. until he hit the expressway. I cant help but asked.. 'why is your carpark so far away?" "We are not going to swim, darling. We're going somewhere else.." Cheeky smirked as he utters those words. It kinda stunned me that I only replied "oh! okae..." As the car moved towards CTE (probably the only expressway that I can really recognise), I asked if we're going to town and was told that "nope, we are just passing by town'' Soon, we reached the REAL destination and looking at where Cheeky was going, I finally got my guess. Meritus Mandarin. Upon the arrival at the always-familiar Meritus Mandarin's lobby.. I was again urged to wait at one side. It was really sweet looking at his back-view, checking in...Doing everything by himself. And one thing that I havent mention is the kind of contentment, warmth and love felt when I saw him carry the bag of heavy belongings.- It's not about what he always do but what he usually don't do, despite it being a small favour. The lovely room that we were allocated for the night was 2042, at the South Tower. With a skillful swipe, Cheeky slotted his key-card above the 'key-hole' above the door-knob. And what stands before the opening of the door was a room which was spacious, luxurious and really soothing.. It must be the kind of holiday-mood one has when checked into a place of absolute nothingness in ur reality. Sadly, the view of the room wasnt facing the Wisma Atria Side.. Nevertheless, like I told Cheeky, this place is really a great place for a contemplative mind to think and feel. On the right side when you enter this cosy room, it's a full-walled mirror facing the toilet with the sliding door..On the left side when you enter, it's a simple yet classy and sparkling clean toilet with a bath-tub! In the room, neatly plain yet luxurious-oriented white coupled with orangey-red furniture really made the furnishing look really compatible. The bedsheets were of no crease and had four big comfty pillows laying on each other. Most importantly, it, the king-sized bed, was big enough.. for me to roll around. :D After exploring our own room (looking through the drawers, the pamphlets, the menus etc), we checked out the Tennis Court and Swimming Pool and finally decided to go for an hour swim before it closes at 7pm.. The water was quiet. Not a single soul in the pool. All there was were a few foreigners sun-bathing at the side of the pool, despite being an almost sun-less evening. Special memories during swimming given to .. 1) how Cheeky taught darling to float on her back and swim backwards, rather than her standard Breast Strokes.. 2) How Cheeky asked me to count from 1-20 but swam to me within 5 at the 1.5m mark, grabbed my ankle (yuppps, i screamed) and carried me up on his shoulders as if a token of triumph.. =x 3) the competition of who can swim further away with just one breath. And....I lost. 4) the attempts to dive downwards.. 5) the piggy-backs.. ![]() This has to be, I say for sure the best moments the 2 of us have since Cheeky's return from the US.. ![]() Desk and Sofa The lady has a choice for dinner. To ensure that Cheeky wasnt making all the decisions for the day, he let me choose among the list of dining places he has in mind for us. Here it goes, Triple-3, Pine Court, Chatterbox or in-room dining? I couldnt make up my mind for that. While I thought that in-room dining is gonna be reallly rare, I was afraid that Cheeky wanna have it somewhere else.. Like a tug-a-war, I finally finally chose in-room dining and was glad that it was parallel with Cheeky's initial decision! *grins, grins, grins.* ![]() One of my favourite pics!! ;D ![]() Another favourite pic! Really love the look when this man sign off the bill, not for materialistic reasons but the kind of 'air' and masculinity.. =D it took them approximately 25 minutes to deliver our orders up and they were all still piping hot when delivered. Too much too much. Dinner was really sumptuous with food from Chatterbox, Triple-3 and maybe some other restaurants from Meritus Mandarin. Especially love the Samosa...really nice! Caesar Salad w Smoked Salmon was nicely complemented too...Crisp, with the fresh salmon. But dinner is absolute privacy, just the two of us with no restrictions in time. The simple chats over dinner. And the coincidental playing of "The Lakehouse" on HBO has complemented our dinner well with romantic love songs. *glad that we had in-room dinner. ![]()
We had ourselves lying on the bed, having heart-to-heart talks, or maybe more of a reminisce kinda chat. And even though both of us missed chilling at the Observatory Lounge, we were too full to stomach much of anything. And since I really dont feel like leaving the room... we forgo-ed chilling and enjoyed each other's company just in the room.. ;D ![]() lovelove. chubchub loves *u! ![]() And my only gift and surprise for this very well-deserved man is the newly-launched nano. Bought it off the shelves of I-shop when it's not even officially keyed into shop's system! :D But it just felt utterly good when I saw how happy he was, even back home when he was fiddling with it..
I recall how things weren't as sweet just before he left..when both of us were on the verge of solving issues for each other, or for self. Whichever way it is. All of these, I can safely say that we have grown stronger, much much stronger in terms of the understanding, and support (only when needed) we gave each other. The always important comfort level. The certainty of this love. The honesty emphasised. The simplicity of mine which kept your love. The complexity and contemplative that made me fell in you. We've been through the test of time and distance, non-obigatory but self-obligatory showers of concern. It sounded dumb to friends of mine ,when one year ago, i told them that our relationship were on the terms of non-obligatory and maybe even to the extent of an open-relationship. I received overwhelming response saying im insane then. Perhaps nobody..even my siblings didnt know what I was thinking about. But know what? It was such non-obligatory terms and all those mentioned above that brought the love of 2 of us up. Over this one year, I was always said to be a good gf, a good gal who always deserves to be happy and shouldnt be sad. That even during shitty times when you were in the US, you were blaming yourself for putting those shitty things of yours as part of my burden too. But like I say..shouldnt couples be sharing good times and bad times? For the fact that I know whether I wonder get involved in your unhappiness or not, you have no right to really blame yourself. And being overly understanding, sometimes I tend to make decisions for this man.. thinking too much into the interest of another isnt really good yea? Cheeky hates people to make decisions for him especially when he knows that he chose for a reason, a reason good and convincing enough to keep that choice. Inferiority kicks in at many times with Cheeky. A man so high up there, regardless of intellectual, wit, knowledge, ideas, maturity.. I'm nowhere near. I always have the mindset that whatever I have in my life is nothing compared to everything that Cheeky has in his. But despite all these, we never had problems. If i recall... the number of times that we really quarrelled can be count within one hand. Sometimes I really still wonder how we were made possible and not only made possible but made to grow beyond our own expectations. Forgetting all I'm lacking Completely incomplete I'll take your invitation You take all of me now. 8:01 PM Labels: Anniversary, ecstatic, Extravagance/Fine-Dining, my love :), Reflections, Sweet Friday, September 19, 2008
.My Weakest
22 SEPT 08 It takes a year or even less, the most two for one to find out what's your weakest subjects academically. It takes about that amount of time for one to know which areas are you generally weak on, paralysed.. But it takes half a lifetime, perhaps the whole of it with the right attitude and reflections to even identify your weakest weakest personality traits. Unlike things mentioned above, personality traits are not as avoidable. It's so inside you. I'm beginning to see all these supposedly good traits of myself to be bad. Blind optimism, that's what i always hear from vampy, from one who's jaded in life. Am I suffering from that too? I always wished I didnt. I wished that good things, good people exist. It could sometimes make me feel like crying when I think of the sad things on this planet. Why can't people believe that good things exist? That people do out of good-will than for the benefit of self? The society is intolerant of soft-heartedness. In a place where one bites another to get a piece of that something, a piece of that something... Soft-hearted creatures are a prey. It's such exploitative relations that made me so scared now. So scared of myself. When will soft-heartedness land me in trouble...again? Neither can many people tolerate considerate souls. Thinking for others in their shoes too much is tiring but un-stoppable. Sometimes you just wished you could stop. Oh man, even for strangers...you do that? You're an idiot. i remembered I did this test on facebook before: WHAT MATURITY LEVEL ARE YOU? Adult-Though you still make errors in judgment, you arrive at them after careful deliberation. Description: You care about others as much as yourself, often putting them before you. Though this is still a transition period, and you are still learning about yourself, you possess a certain level of self-confidence and knowledge of yourself which helps you make it through whatever life throws at you. You are level-headed, preparing yourself for the future and whatever it may bring you. Others find you to be overall reliable and intelligent-someone they can come to in times of need. Yes, and obviously putting others before myself is my weakest link. So trusting that when people throw all things at you, when people 'convinced' you that they has nothing to lie to you...you believed. Because you believe good people exist. Because you are soft-hearted, when you see one's disappointment. Of all these, the root problem is?..... Stupidity. Ash.k, you're out of this world's game. Time to reflect and pray. the loser makes the winner's day 10:41 PM Labels: enraged, Myself, Reflections Monday, September 15, 2008
.1 Year or 1 Month?
The Sweet Anniversary has just passed, 45 miutues ago, but the Sweetness has not. Happy Anniversary, Cheeky Darling Vampy. :D updates to come when i've cleared my tests and projects! ;D 12:46 AM Labels: Anniversary, ecstatic, Indelible memories, my love :), Surreal, Sweet Sunday, September 07, 2008
.Passage by Synergy '08
Welcome by the brightly-lit building UCC and I was still in time. The second time that Im watching a Contemporary Dance. The previous was by AJC and this time...NUS's Synergy. In fact, I lacked the interest to look forward it in the beginning. But having watched the second, I think contemporary dances are nice to watch (but probably not my interest to dance that) coz it's artsy soothing and magical. It exhibits the graciousness of each dancers and when it intergrates with the music, props and especially lighting..I felt like i was watching some world arts. The first office themed dance was great. Novel, it is. Inspiration comes from these people. The relentless, "the show must go on" attitude. Having this dancer who injured her ligament but still went ahead to dance. Now.. that seriously worth a great deal of applause. And to hurt her ligament and still dance beautifully..it just makes people wonder in awe if she was putting up a show in her limpings. But apparently, it was a real injury as confirmed by Char.. And it's not only me. After the dance..audiences were asking if the injury was real or an act. It was too good to be real. Kinda glad that I went for this performance and shared my friend's fruit in this hardwork! Char and koon ______ And on my way back after meeting this disgusting man, it just makes me ponder on how disgusting stares can be. Staring in admiration and pure attraction is just different from a lustful, fantasized one. And it sucks especially when the latter kind of man do it like they have every right in doing so and deny your defy towards their stares. It's just such a disgust that these people in their conscious or sub-conscious have not even the least realisation that they are(were)(will be) invading someone elses private space. And well, private space here refers to the imaginary-boxed and true quantifiable private space. If staring at something or someone relatively nicer is considered a automatic reflex, I just hope to refute this and say that it is controllable. Then again, it's all too superficial to forget that some people are just not too right up there and perhaps the sexual drives generated from their hypothalamus are just so strong that all other brain parts governing logic, rationality, attention and probably movement are failing. So then sometimes, groom or not groom? New Ideas: Strips Series ANOVA is insanely confusing.
10:28 PM Labels: Dance, Myself, Reflections Monday, September 01, 2008
.It's just a place..
I kinda swam it off just now. The water just felt like a piece of jelly just now where each stroke of mine just cant seem to push me forward. Guess that's what happen when you feel heavy in the mind. That call from the clinic, supposedly as a reminder for me puts me off. I don't really wanna get acquainted to it anymore. The gloom it has with it. But I have to admit...it is psychological. My mind was brought back and forth to scenes that I've shut them off. Over the months, I managed to cross the barrier of just standing at the counter. But now? I was told it is a must to enter the room if I wanna continue with them - those daily dosages.. And I cant childishly think that it's the place that's scary. I have to clearly attribute it as my own emotional factor. It's said that when emotions are involved, logical reasonings are gonna be hard to get across to one. But here I am, I want myself to accept things in the positive light and to embrace what is no longer there anymore, realistically. I cant get bothered with these once in every while. Thoughts are processed in 2 ways basically, one after the other. I can have those thoughts and 'memories' jumping at me rampantly, in an automatic way. But controlled processing allows me to control where and how these thoughts are gonna evolved to - for the better or for the worse. And another fretting issue is the sudden and unexpected sum of money to pay. Well, maybe 200+ is not alot but as a student who already has the different kinds of financial commitment every month.. it's seriously infuriating that this has to appear that sudden, coz it's soo out of any of my planned expenditure. I dont think it's gonna be very right, very matured to say that "I hate that place". Afterall, "that place" does nothing to you. The root of it? It's your own actions and if I say that I hate that place, that would mean that I cant accept my own past. Sighs. But still, it's a lil scary. Maybe just that lil. And I just almost felt like crying just now. But whats the point? In the first place, there's nothing wrong, right? ![]() Yupps. So im gonna face it. Be it psychologically, physically or financially. Don't leave me in all this pain. Don't leave me out in the rain. 6:03PM Labels: Emo.., inner voices |
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